Maybe this post is a bit judgmental..ok..this not good..i keep reminding myself not to be judgmental to anyone around me. Its not healthy coz it'll build a barrier to a relationship..any kind of relationship..
But, this time..i think i have to make an exception..so, here me out..reminder: i am not trying to make any statement, i'm just writing on my point of view..
Working in construction industry demands the cooperation from different expertise. Everyone knows that..in fact i think this industry may demand involvement of all of the expertise we have in the world..Therefore, there are lots of interactions between these expertise...they are inter-related and inter-dependent with one another. We were rose up in the field from different background and skills and were put in a place to work together to complete a project.
Problems arise when someone started to jumble up with these different skills. For instance, there would definitely a problem when cost controller will try to be a designer or a market researcher try to be a planner. Most of this started when we feel we did not trust the other party who have different expertise can do their part well and we started to do it in our own way from our point of view, which might be wrong due to lack of the skill that we have.
This would be even more dangerous if the jumble up thingy is from the people at the top of an organization. No doubt that we have to master as many skill as we can but as a normal human being, there are always a limitations. That is why we depend on other people with different skills. That is why a need in working in a group of people from different expertise.
I am looking this from an executive level point of view, who might not know the bigger plans but support the upper level to execute these plan. All i can see there is definitely a problem when people who is not familiar with construction industry trying to boss around people who has vast experience of it. Because i think the way these two people looking to an issue is different. And it become worse when the bossy fails to open up and will only stick to his/her opinion and even force the expert one to act on his so called "not well-evaluated decision due to lack of skill."
But i think, all in all..it'll be back to our attitude. If we opens up and trust the people in the group, i believe we will achieve better results. Because our behavior affected the group especially people at the top level who gives bigger impact to the group.
Saturday, 31 March 2012
Wednesday, 7 March 2012
The struggling
Its been a long time since i visit this blog..since my birthday lahh..waaahhh!!! seriously im not a serious blogger..seriously not..cannot establish myself as that..coz i failed to make my time on to this..failed like 100% fail!! teruk...terukk...shameful! oh..begitu lame sekali rse sbb everytime opening of the entry, mesti cakap pasal mende yg same..which is...'blog berabuk'...abeh tu nak wat camne..dah mmg i am busy like a bee..
Kesahnye, as i had mentioned in previous entry..i am now working in a new company..so, to tell you the truth, i am struggling now..i am trying to win a battle against my self..to fit in an alien environment..which, not only alien, but highly competitive, fast moving, corporate, sophisticated, initiative working environment that demands my double effort...frankly speaking..i never felt this difficult to fit in an environment..once someone said to me that i am easily fitted in any situation or environment (warning : this is not bragging!)..but this time, i feel the difference...its really hard for me to catch up everything..becoz everything is moving super fast here....
The work and work scope, is totally fine..i know that i am mentally ready for this kind of workload...going back late and piles of works is in my list...but the environment...the struggling to mix up with ppl..the running that i have to do so that i'll feel that i am at par with them..the expectation that i have to meet (maybe my boss didn't expect much, or maybe she did...but i feel that she did expect me to be as per my years of experience lah)..sometime is very tiring..maybe because this is like, after 3 years working with fully bumi company, although its a corporate one, i have to compete with other races...furthermore, its not like 'some' other races, its their one of the best...
When i first came in (back in my Day 1 in this co.), the person who welcomed us (me n 2 other fella) said that, people who are working here are carefully selected, from one of the finest, because, according to her, besides the co.'s business plan, it is also a place to train future leaders..when i heard that phrase, i felt like this must be exaggerated..anybody who welcomed u to a new place must said something nice about their home..but in my middle 3rd week here...i can feel that, the phrasing is completely true..you'll see the difference in each and every of the staffs..you can feel how confident and fully driven they are.. i seldom see people lepak or simply chit chat...most of them, in fact all of them are actually doing their work..like no room to chit chat or simply hanging on ppl's desk gossiping..the only time i can see ppl mixing up is during lunch hour..the rest, they are simply busy...It doesn't mean they don't know how to relax and play..but, they just know when is the suitable time to relax and play..Maybe the workload is sky high because we're newly set up. Or maybe, that is just who they are...I don't know....But one thing for sure, this is definitely not my comfort zone. Not just yet. This is definitely the place where i can, no, i need to challenge myself (the biggest challenge is to meet the expectation of my boss specifically, and the company entirely) and sharpen my skill....this is the place where i have to give 200% focus on my work and plan my game for future me. This is where, i need to think not just analytically, but also creatively...
Sometimes regrets do hit my thought when the tiring and anxiety consumed me. But when i reminisce back to the day i was interviewed, i started to realize that we just have to go and do it. We just have to be brave, put extra effort, challenge ourselves, be confident (but not over confident), and just do it. The key point is to be brave and confident. Because when you scared or in doubts, they are clearly shows in your eyes and people can see it.
Yeah its hard! Really, i started to feel it. And i know now that i'm scared and anxious, therefore, i need to do something about this. Really need to.
One quote that i would like to share with all of you. I heard this in one morning while driving to work on RedFM radio show when they are discussing on life coach career...
".....what we are today is the result of our actions in the past..so, if we want a certain thing in a future, we have to shape our actions and makes some adjustments now..."
And i cannot stop my self from agreeing with this statement..coz i believe, in order to reach a certain success that we dream of now, we have to have a goal (a specific one) and works towards it. In the meantime, or during the journey, we have to challenge ourselves. Because, as my Deputy CEO said, when we keep challenging, we basically generating ideas and be initiative, therefore, we can learn two times faster than regular people. That's how ordinary people becomes extraordinary.
Wallahualam...all this i share solely to remind myself of what i am thinking now in the future..may all of this ignites yours and benefited you as well..peace yaw!
Kesahnye, as i had mentioned in previous entry..i am now working in a new company..so, to tell you the truth, i am struggling now..i am trying to win a battle against my self..to fit in an alien environment..which, not only alien, but highly competitive, fast moving, corporate, sophisticated, initiative working environment that demands my double effort...frankly speaking..i never felt this difficult to fit in an environment..once someone said to me that i am easily fitted in any situation or environment (warning : this is not bragging!)..but this time, i feel the difference...its really hard for me to catch up everything..becoz everything is moving super fast here....
The work and work scope, is totally fine..i know that i am mentally ready for this kind of workload...going back late and piles of works is in my list...but the environment...the struggling to mix up with ppl..the running that i have to do so that i'll feel that i am at par with them..the expectation that i have to meet (maybe my boss didn't expect much, or maybe she did...but i feel that she did expect me to be as per my years of experience lah)..sometime is very tiring..maybe because this is like, after 3 years working with fully bumi company, although its a corporate one, i have to compete with other races...furthermore, its not like 'some' other races, its their one of the best...
When i first came in (back in my Day 1 in this co.), the person who welcomed us (me n 2 other fella) said that, people who are working here are carefully selected, from one of the finest, because, according to her, besides the co.'s business plan, it is also a place to train future leaders..when i heard that phrase, i felt like this must be exaggerated..anybody who welcomed u to a new place must said something nice about their home..but in my middle 3rd week here...i can feel that, the phrasing is completely true..you'll see the difference in each and every of the staffs..you can feel how confident and fully driven they are.. i seldom see people lepak or simply chit chat...most of them, in fact all of them are actually doing their work..like no room to chit chat or simply hanging on ppl's desk gossiping..the only time i can see ppl mixing up is during lunch hour..the rest, they are simply busy...It doesn't mean they don't know how to relax and play..but, they just know when is the suitable time to relax and play..Maybe the workload is sky high because we're newly set up. Or maybe, that is just who they are...I don't know....But one thing for sure, this is definitely not my comfort zone. Not just yet. This is definitely the place where i can, no, i need to challenge myself (the biggest challenge is to meet the expectation of my boss specifically, and the company entirely) and sharpen my skill....this is the place where i have to give 200% focus on my work and plan my game for future me. This is where, i need to think not just analytically, but also creatively...
Sometimes regrets do hit my thought when the tiring and anxiety consumed me. But when i reminisce back to the day i was interviewed, i started to realize that we just have to go and do it. We just have to be brave, put extra effort, challenge ourselves, be confident (but not over confident), and just do it. The key point is to be brave and confident. Because when you scared or in doubts, they are clearly shows in your eyes and people can see it.
Yeah its hard! Really, i started to feel it. And i know now that i'm scared and anxious, therefore, i need to do something about this. Really need to.
One quote that i would like to share with all of you. I heard this in one morning while driving to work on RedFM radio show when they are discussing on life coach career...
".....what we are today is the result of our actions in the past..so, if we want a certain thing in a future, we have to shape our actions and makes some adjustments now..."
And i cannot stop my self from agreeing with this statement..coz i believe, in order to reach a certain success that we dream of now, we have to have a goal (a specific one) and works towards it. In the meantime, or during the journey, we have to challenge ourselves. Because, as my Deputy CEO said, when we keep challenging, we basically generating ideas and be initiative, therefore, we can learn two times faster than regular people. That's how ordinary people becomes extraordinary.
Wallahualam...all this i share solely to remind myself of what i am thinking now in the future..may all of this ignites yours and benefited you as well..peace yaw!
Wednesday, 22 February 2012
A Very Happy Birthday to....ME....yes, ME!
Dari tajuknye ade dah menampakkan aku ni sorg yang self-centred...yep, i am..So what?! Heh..
Alhamdulillah..hari ni genap aku telah bernafas ni muka bumi nie selama 'tut tut' tahun (oh, semakin tua adelah tidak membanggakan, jadi x perlu disebut!)...aku sangat bersyukur sbb diberi peluang yang macam2 sehingga aku rase kehiduapan aku yang 'tut tut' tahun nie penuh ngan warna-warni...aku jumpe pelbagai jenis org, pegi bermacam jenis tempat yang mengajar aku banyak pengalaman hidup..
But, as i said before, in this blog on one of my entry, growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional..so, i hope that my brain, my emotion, my maturity grows hand in hand with my age. Each day offers us with new challenges, excitements and experiences. It just how we sees it.
Lately, takde mase nak update blog..sibukkan hape tah..tapi tulahh..ade je yg menghalang tika aku in da mood untuk meluahkan rase hati yang lara ini...
As i mentioned before, my life's turning to a different direction. That is so as i have started my duty in new company. So i am now struggling to fit in with the new environment, new co-workers, new style, new project, new scope of work..everything is alien to me here...ok, tipu..not everything...i know few people here..in fact,i knew my boss and my teammates. We'd been work together before..which means, fitting in with new people around is not the greatest challenge here...
Apart of the needs of waking up early (like, super early) in the morning to go to work, which involving driving to the nearest LRT station and huddling in tiny Monorails, i am more worried about fitting myself in and mixing up with the corporate world. Even though this is not the first time (as my previous co. is a corporate co. as well), but this is like more sophisticated corporate company which require you to wear proper attire and shows the nice professional attitude, which i think what i lacked most.
You know sometimes people can think professionally, act professionally but they are not appear professionally in physical. They just wear the wrong blouse, or the wrong trousers, or the wrong bag or shoes..they seems like not so professional physically. They simply dont have the professional look in them.. and i think i am 'that' people. Haih! Jadi perlu mitigation plan..grooming!
In the meantime, harung je lah...keje dah start menimbun walaupon my laptop belum ready...meeting has been set up..series of discussion will start very soon..so i guess, that'll leave me with little time to update the blog..but i'll try my best. good luck to me!
p.s: sebenanye ade banyak lagi nak diceritakan...tapi xder mase..perlu tido awal supaya esok bleh bgn awal...apepun, thanks to those who wish my healthy and blessing today...love u all...
Alhamdulillah..hari ni genap aku telah bernafas ni muka bumi nie selama 'tut tut' tahun (oh, semakin tua adelah tidak membanggakan, jadi x perlu disebut!)...aku sangat bersyukur sbb diberi peluang yang macam2 sehingga aku rase kehiduapan aku yang 'tut tut' tahun nie penuh ngan warna-warni...aku jumpe pelbagai jenis org, pegi bermacam jenis tempat yang mengajar aku banyak pengalaman hidup..
But, as i said before, in this blog on one of my entry, growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional..so, i hope that my brain, my emotion, my maturity grows hand in hand with my age. Each day offers us with new challenges, excitements and experiences. It just how we sees it.
Lately, takde mase nak update blog..sibukkan hape tah..tapi tulahh..ade je yg menghalang tika aku in da mood untuk meluahkan rase hati yang lara ini...
As i mentioned before, my life's turning to a different direction. That is so as i have started my duty in new company. So i am now struggling to fit in with the new environment, new co-workers, new style, new project, new scope of work..everything is alien to me here...ok, tipu..not everything...i know few people here..in fact,i knew my boss and my teammates. We'd been work together before..which means, fitting in with new people around is not the greatest challenge here...
Apart of the needs of waking up early (like, super early) in the morning to go to work, which involving driving to the nearest LRT station and huddling in tiny Monorails, i am more worried about fitting myself in and mixing up with the corporate world. Even though this is not the first time (as my previous co. is a corporate co. as well), but this is like more sophisticated corporate company which require you to wear proper attire and shows the nice professional attitude, which i think what i lacked most.
You know sometimes people can think professionally, act professionally but they are not appear professionally in physical. They just wear the wrong blouse, or the wrong trousers, or the wrong bag or shoes..they seems like not so professional physically. They simply dont have the professional look in them.. and i think i am 'that' people. Haih! Jadi perlu mitigation plan..grooming!
In the meantime, harung je lah...keje dah start menimbun walaupon my laptop belum ready...meeting has been set up..series of discussion will start very soon..so i guess, that'll leave me with little time to update the blog..but i'll try my best. good luck to me!
p.s: sebenanye ade banyak lagi nak diceritakan...tapi xder mase..perlu tido awal supaya esok bleh bgn awal...apepun, thanks to those who wish my healthy and blessing today...love u all...
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
A Chapter of Life Closing..
Tomorrow i am gonna end one chapter of my life...
Yes..tomorrow would be my last day working in my current company...sedih nak tinggalkan semua kenangan yang dah dilakarkan di sini..baik manis, pahit, masam, kelat, sedap, x sedap...kesedihan meninggalkan kawan2 yang paling utama skali...i am blessed to have the opportunity to know everyone in the company..every single one...both, who are still in the company and those who have left...every single one has affected my life, directly and indirectly..
i am blessed to have good bosses who taught me so much about work and value of life...who taught me how to survive in the real construction world in a whole...who has gave me the opportunity to pursue my self..who shines my ability...who kindly shares their experiences..who reminds me professionally of my mishaps..who belanje me a lot..those good bosses that i learned so much from...
i am blessed to have wonderful friends...who laugh a lot..who shares lunches and dinners.. who shares stories..who i played badminton with..who i jog and go to gym together with..who let me be me and openly accept me as i am...who never turn their back on me..who forgives me of my mistakes...
i am blessed to have wonderful teams, colleagues and co-workers...either from the company, or even outsiders (consultants and contractors)..they really gives me good experiences work wise..
i do learned a lot here...i have been blessed to be given such opportunities which, i would not forget for the rest of my life...
It is sad to leave everything behind...it really is...
But, the time have come for me to close this chapter and open another one...the future chapter that i do not know the colours..but i have to open it anyway..because that is how the life goes...
Now i'm having the mixed feeling..excited but anxious to open the new chapter yet sad to close the present one...Tapi kate orang, kalau nak survive dalam hidup..kene la harung ape yang ade depan mate...so the choice has been made and now i have to be ready to face the consequences of it..
To those in my current company...thanks for everything..halalkan makan minum dan ilmu yang telah dicurahkan.. i believe we have such a small world and surely we will meet again someday...i hope every mistakes made has been forgiven and forgotten..i hope that i will never forget the great three years i had here..
It's time for me to turn my life to a different direction...to prepare myself to meet the new challenges ahead..to meet new boss, meet new colleagues, meet new future friends (which i hope there are)...
So, good luck boss, friends, team mates, colleagues...hope everyone have good years ahead...let this relationship benefited us...insyaAllah...
Yes..tomorrow would be my last day working in my current company...sedih nak tinggalkan semua kenangan yang dah dilakarkan di sini..baik manis, pahit, masam, kelat, sedap, x sedap...kesedihan meninggalkan kawan2 yang paling utama skali...i am blessed to have the opportunity to know everyone in the company..every single one...both, who are still in the company and those who have left...every single one has affected my life, directly and indirectly..
i am blessed to have good bosses who taught me so much about work and value of life...who taught me how to survive in the real construction world in a whole...who has gave me the opportunity to pursue my self..who shines my ability...who kindly shares their experiences..who reminds me professionally of my mishaps..who belanje me a lot..those good bosses that i learned so much from...
i am blessed to have wonderful friends...who laugh a lot..who shares lunches and dinners.. who shares stories..who i played badminton with..who i jog and go to gym together with..who let me be me and openly accept me as i am...who never turn their back on me..who forgives me of my mistakes...
i am blessed to have wonderful teams, colleagues and co-workers...either from the company, or even outsiders (consultants and contractors)..they really gives me good experiences work wise..
i do learned a lot here...i have been blessed to be given such opportunities which, i would not forget for the rest of my life...
It is sad to leave everything behind...it really is...
But, the time have come for me to close this chapter and open another one...the future chapter that i do not know the colours..but i have to open it anyway..because that is how the life goes...
Now i'm having the mixed feeling..excited but anxious to open the new chapter yet sad to close the present one...Tapi kate orang, kalau nak survive dalam hidup..kene la harung ape yang ade depan mate...so the choice has been made and now i have to be ready to face the consequences of it..
To those in my current company...thanks for everything..halalkan makan minum dan ilmu yang telah dicurahkan.. i believe we have such a small world and surely we will meet again someday...i hope every mistakes made has been forgiven and forgotten..i hope that i will never forget the great three years i had here..
It's time for me to turn my life to a different direction...to prepare myself to meet the new challenges ahead..to meet new boss, meet new colleagues, meet new future friends (which i hope there are)...
So, good luck boss, friends, team mates, colleagues...hope everyone have good years ahead...let this relationship benefited us...insyaAllah...
p.s: this song literally aired on the radio as i post this entry! eh, macam graduation plak...ekekeke
Thursday, 9 February 2012
how do you like ur french toast?
Yes peep..how do u like ur french toast??
french toast sedap dimakan dengan ape saje...u can have it either sweet or savoury...both tastes good, i believe...u can either eat it with honey or ketchup..u can eat it with curry or plain soup...or u can sandwich it with cheese...all those things to give additional taste to the toast..to make it taste much more better...the taste surely varies depending on the additives u put in..
Without those thing a french toast will be a boring normal french toast....
Just like ur life..
Without friends, families, acquantances, partners, flings, secret admirers, stalkers, enemies, etc...ur life wud be a plain boring life...
And now, throw ur arrogance and go out and meet people...u'll found how uniquely amazing they are..how much u can learn from them..
And give urself a room to meet the wrong ones..u might learn much more from them...
...a soft reminder to me from myself...
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Friday, 3 February 2012
morning call
I dont know whats got me in this particular morning...
Maybe it's because pretty bad dream i had last night..or just something bothers me...i cant figure it out any way..
Despite of my bad attitude of waking up late which resulted to late coming for works, surprisingly this morning, i woke up super early (6.15am is super early for me though), had my early morning bath, had my hair dried, wear casual working suit and found my self here....
Yes, i am having a so so coffee to start my day...wish it was something better..oh..rindu good coffee like what i had in a cruise from dover, uk to calais, france through the shortest english channel once..
A hot coffee and a ciggarate (ok, thats exaggeration) in a cold chilly weather...what more can i asked..Yes, i am grateful to have those experience to reminisce..and i am very greatful to be still given a chance to breath in the one of the greatest God's creation, the universe...
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Thursday, 2 February 2012
damn annoying!!! (part 2)
Ok, ni tahap x tahan sampai kene update kan fon...
Annoy pade sesetengah pasangan yg control his/her partner like hell..when i said hell, i mean mmg neraka jahannam peringkat pertama tuh...
Ok, aku paham yg korang mmg sayang gila nak mampus ngn bf/gf korang kan....tapi kamon...he's ur bf/gf...not even ur husband/wife lagipun...by right ko tadek hak nak lagi nk menyekat kebebasan die....especially hak utk berkawan..xkira la dgn kaum sejenis atau pun x?
Who are you to judge whether that friend is good or bad to ur partner. I guess the only way is to make urself around ur partner's circle of friend..get to know them..dan segala curiga atau pikiran yg bukan2 tu kompem hilang...
Yes, ive got lotsa fren dan antaranya mmg sumeone's bf/gf...dan we do lepak kedai mamak..hang out at some times...xslalu, sbb tu kalau skali lepak, mmg lme...nk catch up stories yg lame tertunggak..
Tapi kalau lepak once in a blue moon pon ko dah marah2 dan majuk2 ngn bf/gf ko..apekehal...x ilangnye bf/gf ko tuhh...xde sape nak amek aihh...
If he/she is really in love wif you...datanglah bidadara/i kayangan pon...u will always his/hers..sikap kau yng kaki control tu hanye akan buat ur partner lemas which someday make him/her fly away..yes peeps..this apply to all the rule relationship..not the exception one..
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