Maybe this post is a bit judgmental..ok..this not good..i keep reminding myself not to be judgmental to anyone around me. Its not healthy coz it'll build a barrier to a relationship..any kind of relationship..
But, this time..i think i have to make an exception..so, here me out..reminder: i am not trying to make any statement, i'm just writing on my point of view..
Working in construction industry demands the cooperation from different expertise. Everyone knows that..in fact i think this industry may demand involvement of all of the expertise we have in the world..Therefore, there are lots of interactions between these expertise...they are inter-related and inter-dependent with one another. We were rose up in the field from different background and skills and were put in a place to work together to complete a project.
Problems arise when someone started to jumble up with these different skills. For instance, there would definitely a problem when cost controller will try to be a designer or a market researcher try to be a planner. Most of this started when we feel we did not trust the other party who have different expertise can do their part well and we started to do it in our own way from our point of view, which might be wrong due to lack of the skill that we have.
This would be even more dangerous if the jumble up thingy is from the people at the top of an organization. No doubt that we have to master as many skill as we can but as a normal human being, there are always a limitations. That is why we depend on other people with different skills. That is why a need in working in a group of people from different expertise.
I am looking this from an executive level point of view, who might not know the bigger plans but support the upper level to execute these plan. All i can see there is definitely a problem when people who is not familiar with construction industry trying to boss around people who has vast experience of it. Because i think the way these two people looking to an issue is different. And it become worse when the bossy fails to open up and will only stick to his/her opinion and even force the expert one to act on his so called "not well-evaluated decision due to lack of skill."
But i think, all in all..it'll be back to our attitude. If we opens up and trust the people in the group, i believe we will achieve better results. Because our behavior affected the group especially people at the top level who gives bigger impact to the group.
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Saturday, 31 March 2012
Wednesday, 7 March 2012
The struggling
Its been a long time since i visit this blog..since my birthday lahh..waaahhh!!! seriously im not a serious blogger..seriously not..cannot establish myself as that..coz i failed to make my time on to this..failed like 100% fail!! teruk...terukk...shameful! oh..begitu lame sekali rse sbb everytime opening of the entry, mesti cakap pasal mende yg same..which is...'blog berabuk'...abeh tu nak wat camne..dah mmg i am busy like a bee..
Kesahnye, as i had mentioned in previous entry..i am now working in a new company..so, to tell you the truth, i am struggling now..i am trying to win a battle against my self..to fit in an alien environment..which, not only alien, but highly competitive, fast moving, corporate, sophisticated, initiative working environment that demands my double effort...frankly speaking..i never felt this difficult to fit in an environment..once someone said to me that i am easily fitted in any situation or environment (warning : this is not bragging!)..but this time, i feel the difference...its really hard for me to catch up everything..becoz everything is moving super fast here....
The work and work scope, is totally fine..i know that i am mentally ready for this kind of workload...going back late and piles of works is in my list...but the environment...the struggling to mix up with ppl..the running that i have to do so that i'll feel that i am at par with them..the expectation that i have to meet (maybe my boss didn't expect much, or maybe she did...but i feel that she did expect me to be as per my years of experience lah)..sometime is very tiring..maybe because this is like, after 3 years working with fully bumi company, although its a corporate one, i have to compete with other races...furthermore, its not like 'some' other races, its their one of the best...
When i first came in (back in my Day 1 in this co.), the person who welcomed us (me n 2 other fella) said that, people who are working here are carefully selected, from one of the finest, because, according to her, besides the co.'s business plan, it is also a place to train future leaders..when i heard that phrase, i felt like this must be exaggerated..anybody who welcomed u to a new place must said something nice about their home..but in my middle 3rd week here...i can feel that, the phrasing is completely true..you'll see the difference in each and every of the staffs..you can feel how confident and fully driven they are.. i seldom see people lepak or simply chit chat...most of them, in fact all of them are actually doing their work..like no room to chit chat or simply hanging on ppl's desk gossiping..the only time i can see ppl mixing up is during lunch hour..the rest, they are simply busy...It doesn't mean they don't know how to relax and play..but, they just know when is the suitable time to relax and play..Maybe the workload is sky high because we're newly set up. Or maybe, that is just who they are...I don't know....But one thing for sure, this is definitely not my comfort zone. Not just yet. This is definitely the place where i can, no, i need to challenge myself (the biggest challenge is to meet the expectation of my boss specifically, and the company entirely) and sharpen my skill....this is the place where i have to give 200% focus on my work and plan my game for future me. This is where, i need to think not just analytically, but also creatively...
Sometimes regrets do hit my thought when the tiring and anxiety consumed me. But when i reminisce back to the day i was interviewed, i started to realize that we just have to go and do it. We just have to be brave, put extra effort, challenge ourselves, be confident (but not over confident), and just do it. The key point is to be brave and confident. Because when you scared or in doubts, they are clearly shows in your eyes and people can see it.
Yeah its hard! Really, i started to feel it. And i know now that i'm scared and anxious, therefore, i need to do something about this. Really need to.
One quote that i would like to share with all of you. I heard this in one morning while driving to work on RedFM radio show when they are discussing on life coach career...
".....what we are today is the result of our actions in the past..so, if we want a certain thing in a future, we have to shape our actions and makes some adjustments now..."
And i cannot stop my self from agreeing with this statement..coz i believe, in order to reach a certain success that we dream of now, we have to have a goal (a specific one) and works towards it. In the meantime, or during the journey, we have to challenge ourselves. Because, as my Deputy CEO said, when we keep challenging, we basically generating ideas and be initiative, therefore, we can learn two times faster than regular people. That's how ordinary people becomes extraordinary.
Wallahualam...all this i share solely to remind myself of what i am thinking now in the future..may all of this ignites yours and benefited you as well..peace yaw!
Kesahnye, as i had mentioned in previous entry..i am now working in a new company..so, to tell you the truth, i am struggling now..i am trying to win a battle against my self..to fit in an alien environment..which, not only alien, but highly competitive, fast moving, corporate, sophisticated, initiative working environment that demands my double effort...frankly speaking..i never felt this difficult to fit in an environment..once someone said to me that i am easily fitted in any situation or environment (warning : this is not bragging!)..but this time, i feel the difference...its really hard for me to catch up everything..becoz everything is moving super fast here....
The work and work scope, is totally fine..i know that i am mentally ready for this kind of workload...going back late and piles of works is in my list...but the environment...the struggling to mix up with ppl..the running that i have to do so that i'll feel that i am at par with them..the expectation that i have to meet (maybe my boss didn't expect much, or maybe she did...but i feel that she did expect me to be as per my years of experience lah)..sometime is very tiring..maybe because this is like, after 3 years working with fully bumi company, although its a corporate one, i have to compete with other races...furthermore, its not like 'some' other races, its their one of the best...
When i first came in (back in my Day 1 in this co.), the person who welcomed us (me n 2 other fella) said that, people who are working here are carefully selected, from one of the finest, because, according to her, besides the co.'s business plan, it is also a place to train future leaders..when i heard that phrase, i felt like this must be exaggerated..anybody who welcomed u to a new place must said something nice about their home..but in my middle 3rd week here...i can feel that, the phrasing is completely true..you'll see the difference in each and every of the staffs..you can feel how confident and fully driven they are.. i seldom see people lepak or simply chit chat...most of them, in fact all of them are actually doing their work..like no room to chit chat or simply hanging on ppl's desk gossiping..the only time i can see ppl mixing up is during lunch hour..the rest, they are simply busy...It doesn't mean they don't know how to relax and play..but, they just know when is the suitable time to relax and play..Maybe the workload is sky high because we're newly set up. Or maybe, that is just who they are...I don't know....But one thing for sure, this is definitely not my comfort zone. Not just yet. This is definitely the place where i can, no, i need to challenge myself (the biggest challenge is to meet the expectation of my boss specifically, and the company entirely) and sharpen my skill....this is the place where i have to give 200% focus on my work and plan my game for future me. This is where, i need to think not just analytically, but also creatively...
Sometimes regrets do hit my thought when the tiring and anxiety consumed me. But when i reminisce back to the day i was interviewed, i started to realize that we just have to go and do it. We just have to be brave, put extra effort, challenge ourselves, be confident (but not over confident), and just do it. The key point is to be brave and confident. Because when you scared or in doubts, they are clearly shows in your eyes and people can see it.
Yeah its hard! Really, i started to feel it. And i know now that i'm scared and anxious, therefore, i need to do something about this. Really need to.
One quote that i would like to share with all of you. I heard this in one morning while driving to work on RedFM radio show when they are discussing on life coach career...
".....what we are today is the result of our actions in the past..so, if we want a certain thing in a future, we have to shape our actions and makes some adjustments now..."
And i cannot stop my self from agreeing with this statement..coz i believe, in order to reach a certain success that we dream of now, we have to have a goal (a specific one) and works towards it. In the meantime, or during the journey, we have to challenge ourselves. Because, as my Deputy CEO said, when we keep challenging, we basically generating ideas and be initiative, therefore, we can learn two times faster than regular people. That's how ordinary people becomes extraordinary.
Wallahualam...all this i share solely to remind myself of what i am thinking now in the future..may all of this ignites yours and benefited you as well..peace yaw!
Wednesday, 22 February 2012
A Very Happy Birthday to....ME....yes, ME!
Dari tajuknye ade dah menampakkan aku ni sorg yang self-centred...yep, i am..So what?! Heh..
Alhamdulillah..hari ni genap aku telah bernafas ni muka bumi nie selama 'tut tut' tahun (oh, semakin tua adelah tidak membanggakan, jadi x perlu disebut!)...aku sangat bersyukur sbb diberi peluang yang macam2 sehingga aku rase kehiduapan aku yang 'tut tut' tahun nie penuh ngan warna-warni...aku jumpe pelbagai jenis org, pegi bermacam jenis tempat yang mengajar aku banyak pengalaman hidup..
But, as i said before, in this blog on one of my entry, growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional..so, i hope that my brain, my emotion, my maturity grows hand in hand with my age. Each day offers us with new challenges, excitements and experiences. It just how we sees it.
Lately, takde mase nak update blog..sibukkan hape tah..tapi tulahh..ade je yg menghalang tika aku in da mood untuk meluahkan rase hati yang lara ini...
As i mentioned before, my life's turning to a different direction. That is so as i have started my duty in new company. So i am now struggling to fit in with the new environment, new co-workers, new style, new project, new scope of work..everything is alien to me here...ok, tipu..not everything...i know few people here..in fact,i knew my boss and my teammates. We'd been work together before..which means, fitting in with new people around is not the greatest challenge here...
Apart of the needs of waking up early (like, super early) in the morning to go to work, which involving driving to the nearest LRT station and huddling in tiny Monorails, i am more worried about fitting myself in and mixing up with the corporate world. Even though this is not the first time (as my previous co. is a corporate co. as well), but this is like more sophisticated corporate company which require you to wear proper attire and shows the nice professional attitude, which i think what i lacked most.
You know sometimes people can think professionally, act professionally but they are not appear professionally in physical. They just wear the wrong blouse, or the wrong trousers, or the wrong bag or shoes..they seems like not so professional physically. They simply dont have the professional look in them.. and i think i am 'that' people. Haih! Jadi perlu mitigation plan..grooming!
In the meantime, harung je lah...keje dah start menimbun walaupon my laptop belum ready...meeting has been set up..series of discussion will start very soon..so i guess, that'll leave me with little time to update the blog..but i'll try my best. good luck to me!
p.s: sebenanye ade banyak lagi nak diceritakan...tapi xder mase..perlu tido awal supaya esok bleh bgn awal...apepun, thanks to those who wish my healthy and blessing today...love u all...
Alhamdulillah..hari ni genap aku telah bernafas ni muka bumi nie selama 'tut tut' tahun (oh, semakin tua adelah tidak membanggakan, jadi x perlu disebut!)...aku sangat bersyukur sbb diberi peluang yang macam2 sehingga aku rase kehiduapan aku yang 'tut tut' tahun nie penuh ngan warna-warni...aku jumpe pelbagai jenis org, pegi bermacam jenis tempat yang mengajar aku banyak pengalaman hidup..
But, as i said before, in this blog on one of my entry, growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional..so, i hope that my brain, my emotion, my maturity grows hand in hand with my age. Each day offers us with new challenges, excitements and experiences. It just how we sees it.
Lately, takde mase nak update blog..sibukkan hape tah..tapi tulahh..ade je yg menghalang tika aku in da mood untuk meluahkan rase hati yang lara ini...
As i mentioned before, my life's turning to a different direction. That is so as i have started my duty in new company. So i am now struggling to fit in with the new environment, new co-workers, new style, new project, new scope of work..everything is alien to me here...ok, tipu..not everything...i know few people here..in fact,i knew my boss and my teammates. We'd been work together before..which means, fitting in with new people around is not the greatest challenge here...
Apart of the needs of waking up early (like, super early) in the morning to go to work, which involving driving to the nearest LRT station and huddling in tiny Monorails, i am more worried about fitting myself in and mixing up with the corporate world. Even though this is not the first time (as my previous co. is a corporate co. as well), but this is like more sophisticated corporate company which require you to wear proper attire and shows the nice professional attitude, which i think what i lacked most.
You know sometimes people can think professionally, act professionally but they are not appear professionally in physical. They just wear the wrong blouse, or the wrong trousers, or the wrong bag or shoes..they seems like not so professional physically. They simply dont have the professional look in them.. and i think i am 'that' people. Haih! Jadi perlu mitigation plan..grooming!
In the meantime, harung je lah...keje dah start menimbun walaupon my laptop belum ready...meeting has been set up..series of discussion will start very soon..so i guess, that'll leave me with little time to update the blog..but i'll try my best. good luck to me!
p.s: sebenanye ade banyak lagi nak diceritakan...tapi xder mase..perlu tido awal supaya esok bleh bgn awal...apepun, thanks to those who wish my healthy and blessing today...love u all...
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
A Chapter of Life Closing..
Tomorrow i am gonna end one chapter of my life...
Yes..tomorrow would be my last day working in my current company...sedih nak tinggalkan semua kenangan yang dah dilakarkan di sini..baik manis, pahit, masam, kelat, sedap, x sedap...kesedihan meninggalkan kawan2 yang paling utama skali...i am blessed to have the opportunity to know everyone in the company..every single one...both, who are still in the company and those who have left...every single one has affected my life, directly and indirectly..
i am blessed to have good bosses who taught me so much about work and value of life...who taught me how to survive in the real construction world in a whole...who has gave me the opportunity to pursue my self..who shines my ability...who kindly shares their experiences..who reminds me professionally of my mishaps..who belanje me a lot..those good bosses that i learned so much from...
i am blessed to have wonderful friends...who laugh a lot..who shares lunches and dinners.. who shares stories..who i played badminton with..who i jog and go to gym together with..who let me be me and openly accept me as i am...who never turn their back on me..who forgives me of my mistakes...
i am blessed to have wonderful teams, colleagues and co-workers...either from the company, or even outsiders (consultants and contractors)..they really gives me good experiences work wise..
i do learned a lot here...i have been blessed to be given such opportunities which, i would not forget for the rest of my life...
It is sad to leave everything behind...it really is...
But, the time have come for me to close this chapter and open another one...the future chapter that i do not know the colours..but i have to open it anyway..because that is how the life goes...
Now i'm having the mixed feeling..excited but anxious to open the new chapter yet sad to close the present one...Tapi kate orang, kalau nak survive dalam hidup..kene la harung ape yang ade depan mate...so the choice has been made and now i have to be ready to face the consequences of it..
To those in my current company...thanks for everything..halalkan makan minum dan ilmu yang telah dicurahkan.. i believe we have such a small world and surely we will meet again someday...i hope every mistakes made has been forgiven and forgotten..i hope that i will never forget the great three years i had here..
It's time for me to turn my life to a different direction...to prepare myself to meet the new challenges ahead..to meet new boss, meet new colleagues, meet new future friends (which i hope there are)...
So, good luck boss, friends, team mates, colleagues...hope everyone have good years ahead...let this relationship benefited us...insyaAllah...
Yes..tomorrow would be my last day working in my current company...sedih nak tinggalkan semua kenangan yang dah dilakarkan di sini..baik manis, pahit, masam, kelat, sedap, x sedap...kesedihan meninggalkan kawan2 yang paling utama skali...i am blessed to have the opportunity to know everyone in the company..every single one...both, who are still in the company and those who have left...every single one has affected my life, directly and indirectly..
i am blessed to have good bosses who taught me so much about work and value of life...who taught me how to survive in the real construction world in a whole...who has gave me the opportunity to pursue my self..who shines my ability...who kindly shares their experiences..who reminds me professionally of my mishaps..who belanje me a lot..those good bosses that i learned so much from...
i am blessed to have wonderful friends...who laugh a lot..who shares lunches and dinners.. who shares stories..who i played badminton with..who i jog and go to gym together with..who let me be me and openly accept me as i am...who never turn their back on me..who forgives me of my mistakes...
i am blessed to have wonderful teams, colleagues and co-workers...either from the company, or even outsiders (consultants and contractors)..they really gives me good experiences work wise..
i do learned a lot here...i have been blessed to be given such opportunities which, i would not forget for the rest of my life...
It is sad to leave everything behind...it really is...
But, the time have come for me to close this chapter and open another one...the future chapter that i do not know the colours..but i have to open it anyway..because that is how the life goes...
Now i'm having the mixed feeling..excited but anxious to open the new chapter yet sad to close the present one...Tapi kate orang, kalau nak survive dalam hidup..kene la harung ape yang ade depan mate...so the choice has been made and now i have to be ready to face the consequences of it..
To those in my current company...thanks for everything..halalkan makan minum dan ilmu yang telah dicurahkan.. i believe we have such a small world and surely we will meet again someday...i hope every mistakes made has been forgiven and forgotten..i hope that i will never forget the great three years i had here..
It's time for me to turn my life to a different direction...to prepare myself to meet the new challenges ahead..to meet new boss, meet new colleagues, meet new future friends (which i hope there are)...
So, good luck boss, friends, team mates, colleagues...hope everyone have good years ahead...let this relationship benefited us...insyaAllah...
p.s: this song literally aired on the radio as i post this entry! eh, macam graduation plak...ekekeke
Friday, 3 February 2012
morning call
I dont know whats got me in this particular morning...
Maybe it's because pretty bad dream i had last night..or just something bothers me...i cant figure it out any way..
Despite of my bad attitude of waking up late which resulted to late coming for works, surprisingly this morning, i woke up super early (6.15am is super early for me though), had my early morning bath, had my hair dried, wear casual working suit and found my self here....
Yes, i am having a so so coffee to start my day...wish it was something better..oh..rindu good coffee like what i had in a cruise from dover, uk to calais, france through the shortest english channel once..
A hot coffee and a ciggarate (ok, thats exaggeration) in a cold chilly weather...what more can i asked..Yes, i am grateful to have those experience to reminisce..and i am very greatful to be still given a chance to breath in the one of the greatest God's creation, the universe...
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Thursday, 2 February 2012
damn annoying!!! (part 2)
Ok, ni tahap x tahan sampai kene update kan fon...
Annoy pade sesetengah pasangan yg control his/her partner like hell..when i said hell, i mean mmg neraka jahannam peringkat pertama tuh...
Ok, aku paham yg korang mmg sayang gila nak mampus ngn bf/gf korang kan....tapi kamon...he's ur bf/gf...not even ur husband/wife lagipun...by right ko tadek hak nak lagi nk menyekat kebebasan die....especially hak utk berkawan..xkira la dgn kaum sejenis atau pun x?
Who are you to judge whether that friend is good or bad to ur partner. I guess the only way is to make urself around ur partner's circle of friend..get to know them..dan segala curiga atau pikiran yg bukan2 tu kompem hilang...
Yes, ive got lotsa fren dan antaranya mmg sumeone's bf/gf...dan we do lepak kedai mamak..hang out at some times...xslalu, sbb tu kalau skali lepak, mmg lme...nk catch up stories yg lame tertunggak..
Tapi kalau lepak once in a blue moon pon ko dah marah2 dan majuk2 ngn bf/gf ko..apekehal...x ilangnye bf/gf ko tuhh...xde sape nak amek aihh...
If he/she is really in love wif you...datanglah bidadara/i kayangan pon...u will always his/hers..sikap kau yng kaki control tu hanye akan buat ur partner lemas which someday make him/her fly away..yes peeps..this apply to all the rule relationship..not the exception one..
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Wednesday, 1 February 2012
Something im not proud of..
Ahhhhh chhhooommm...(habuk berterabur)..peh..lame gile aku x update blog..dah nak masuk sebulan dah since my last entri...bulan Jan ade 2 entry je? tu pon satu entri tertunggak type dari bulan Dec..not good..not good...
Entahle what's got into me...aku malas gile nak update blog..org kate menulis adelah kerane minat...so, ppl yg suke buat sesuatu tu will always make time for it..aku minat jugak..tapi always xde time for it..maknenye x bape nak minat lah eh?? err..entahh...
Mane tah hilang mood ni..i expect sbb aku kurang membaca skang..not just x update blog..bace blog pon kurang..dari situ la hilangnye mood nak berblog..padahal blogging can be a good theraphy..depends on how u potray it la...
Sebenanye ade bende yang berlaku kebelakangan ni yang boleh aku blog kan...tapi..untuk aku duduk depan laptop, put my hands on these keypad, adelah sangat malas...but everything's in my head..kan best klu ade satu device yang boleh translate-kan ape yang ade dalam pale otak ni into words..i wud be the most happiest person in da whole world...ok, gila malas..tapi aku suke bace balik entri sndiri bcoz there'll be one sort of feeling of excitement plus overjoyed plus sadness plus relief yang datang menyelinkar di lubuk hatiku setiap kali membaca nye..ye dop kengkawan? ke aku sorg rase gitu..nampak sangat aku sangat self centred..haha..pedulik!
Actually there are so much of awesome thing happened in my life recently..kalau la ade device yang aku cakap tadi...boleh jadi die jammed sbb ade banyak sangat mende yang boleh diceritakan. Jadi, aku hutang banyak entri sebenarnye nih..(peh, siap jadi hutang bagai...kire dah macam ade tanggungjawab terhadap blog sendiri dah..*mcm bela anak)...entri travel is inclusive..note that i only at half day of my Singapore trip yang dah berlaku months ago...shamefull..in queue, bercuti bersama besties di kala menjelang tahun baru dan juga pengalaman pertama ku bergembira di atas kelong bersama rakan taulan...tu belum masuk entri pasal my life, which, i expect gonna turn to 180 degree soon. Haihs..banyak tu...
But everytime aku nak update blog, mood menulis tu x datang2...macam ade syaitonirrajim yang berbisik di telinge..tayah la update blog, penat jari tu nanti...heh...end up, aku bukak D: drive, bukak series yang aku da donlot dan tonton hingga lebam..maka tertunggak lah entri yang aku dah niat nak buat..niat suci murni tu ade....xbuat je...pemalas ya amat...
Ok lah, aku try halau jauh2 syaitonirrajim tuh...aaaa..ni sume syaiton2 yg same yg hasut aku makan banyak sehingga naik beberapa kilo yang banyak yang tidak membanggakan langsung..heh...tableh2..i have to do something dengan syaiton2 ni sume..!! mesti!!
p.s:/ ini adalah antara entri terpantas saye....cume 2 lagu kat red fm je yang diperlukan utk menyiapkan entri ni....oh..tiga, termasuk meng-cut & paste entri ni sbb aku hampir2 nak terupdate entri ni kat blog jual barang aku...see, how teruk i am now! not proud..not proud...
Entahle what's got into me...aku malas gile nak update blog..org kate menulis adelah kerane minat...so, ppl yg suke buat sesuatu tu will always make time for it..aku minat jugak..tapi always xde time for it..maknenye x bape nak minat lah eh?? err..entahh...
Mane tah hilang mood ni..i expect sbb aku kurang membaca skang..not just x update blog..bace blog pon kurang..dari situ la hilangnye mood nak berblog..padahal blogging can be a good theraphy..depends on how u potray it la...
Sebenanye ade bende yang berlaku kebelakangan ni yang boleh aku blog kan...tapi..untuk aku duduk depan laptop, put my hands on these keypad, adelah sangat malas...but everything's in my head..kan best klu ade satu device yang boleh translate-kan ape yang ade dalam pale otak ni into words..i wud be the most happiest person in da whole world...ok, gila malas..tapi aku suke bace balik entri sndiri bcoz there'll be one sort of feeling of excitement plus overjoyed plus sadness plus relief yang datang menyelinkar di lubuk hatiku setiap kali membaca nye..ye dop kengkawan? ke aku sorg rase gitu..nampak sangat aku sangat self centred..haha..pedulik!
Actually there are so much of awesome thing happened in my life recently..kalau la ade device yang aku cakap tadi...boleh jadi die jammed sbb ade banyak sangat mende yang boleh diceritakan. Jadi, aku hutang banyak entri sebenarnye nih..(peh, siap jadi hutang bagai...kire dah macam ade tanggungjawab terhadap blog sendiri dah..*mcm bela anak)...entri travel is inclusive..note that i only at half day of my Singapore trip yang dah berlaku months ago...shamefull..in queue, bercuti bersama besties di kala menjelang tahun baru dan juga pengalaman pertama ku bergembira di atas kelong bersama rakan taulan...tu belum masuk entri pasal my life, which, i expect gonna turn to 180 degree soon. Haihs..banyak tu...
But everytime aku nak update blog, mood menulis tu x datang2...macam ade syaitonirrajim yang berbisik di telinge..tayah la update blog, penat jari tu nanti...heh...end up, aku bukak D: drive, bukak series yang aku da donlot dan tonton hingga lebam..maka tertunggak lah entri yang aku dah niat nak buat..niat suci murni tu ade....xbuat je...pemalas ya amat...
Ok lah, aku try halau jauh2 syaitonirrajim tuh...aaaa..ni sume syaiton2 yg same yg hasut aku makan banyak sehingga naik beberapa kilo yang banyak yang tidak membanggakan langsung..heh...tableh2..i have to do something dengan syaiton2 ni sume..!! mesti!!
p.s:/ ini adalah antara entri terpantas saye....cume 2 lagu kat red fm je yang diperlukan utk menyiapkan entri ni....oh..tiga, termasuk meng-cut & paste entri ni sbb aku hampir2 nak terupdate entri ni kat blog jual barang aku...see, how teruk i am now! not proud..not proud...
Friday, 6 January 2012
Happy New Year Everyone!!
It's been a while since i wrote anything on this blog. Been busy with everyday life...yeah..who's not? shud've make the time instead of letting the time decide, aite?
This is my first post of the 2012...so...HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!! i guessed it's not too late...it's just five day away from 01012012..2012 is now 5 days old. How fast time flies!...
New year comes with new resolution..new spirit...new goal..new planning..new games..let alone new shoes..new bags..new clothes..Everything's new..it marks the fresh start..it marks new beginning of new challenge..that is why we were celebrating it all over the world...because the new it's not going to be the same as old one..indeed.
My new 'thing' is almost nothing. i have the same incomplete last year's resolution..last decade i guessed..which of course to loose lots of weight (never accomplish it so far!)...despite the fact that it keeps jumping up and down and up again, i've modified this resolution from losing weight to be healthy...that looks like achievable..hmmm...depending how we define healthy, i guessed..happy is another way of healthy life, aite? Janji aku x sakit sudah dan jantung dapat berfungsi dengan baik untuk membekalkan darah ke otak dan seluruh anggota badan yang lain..eceh! (cakap je la ko x pnah berjaye loose weight jimah oii..!) <--- oh! i really have to loose some weight! One of my closest friend is getting married and i wanted to look fabulous at her reception! ohhhh...sape nak sponsor saye amek class power plate sile angkat tangaaann!!!....
If last year during this time i had been counting days of my annual leaves for vacations and trips, surprisingly, this year i have no plan of any vacation at all....nan hado! i didn't manage to secure any flight to anywhere..so i guessed it's gonna be a quite year ahead. But i target to have at least one big trip this year...say, New Zealand, anyone? Ohhh...marilah ajak aku buat part time taking off agar dapat kumpol duit pegi trip idaman!
Career life! Planned to change company since end of last year..but looking at the economic situation these days..it's hard to predict anything at all..but still, if i've got the chance to pursue myself to gain new experience with a great salary, then, why not?! Changes can affected positively. For the moment, just stay in the current company and do the usual job...but, with new spirit of course..in more productive way...im just in my almost 5th year of career life..there's still a lot to learn. Oh, just to share..i had an interview today in a super big developer company (like at least 3 times bigger than my current company)...it was the toughest interview that i ever attended...very challenging. But anyway, it's too early to tell anything now. There'll be a next stage if i passed the one i had this evening. But it'll be a new challenge if i get the job! New experience offered as well. Tapi rezeki masing2 Allah dah ditentukan kan..jadi let's pray for a better career opportunity this year.
Relationship?! Not in my list at the moment. I want to focus more on building up my career. Tapi kalau ade jodoh yang datang bergolek, masakan aku nak tolak. Itu menidakkan rezeki dari Allah namanye.
Seems like no changes planned for this year...or, maybe i'm just a bad planner?! i don't know! it's still early to expect any glory for this year..still striving to achieve anything...still striving for a better stable life...still and always will be..
I just hope that i'll be a better person than i am in last year. Better in all aspects. Every aspects.
So, good luck with your year everyone! let's go and get going!
This is my first post of the 2012...so...HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!! i guessed it's not too late...it's just five day away from 01012012..2012 is now 5 days old. How fast time flies!...
New year comes with new resolution..new spirit...new goal..new planning..new games..let alone new shoes..new bags..new clothes..Everything's new..it marks the fresh start..it marks new beginning of new challenge..that is why we were celebrating it all over the world...because the new it's not going to be the same as old one..indeed.
My new 'thing' is almost nothing. i have the same incomplete last year's resolution..last decade i guessed..which of course to loose lots of weight (never accomplish it so far!)...despite the fact that it keeps jumping up and down and up again, i've modified this resolution from losing weight to be healthy...that looks like achievable..hmmm...depending how we define healthy, i guessed..happy is another way of healthy life, aite? Janji aku x sakit sudah dan jantung dapat berfungsi dengan baik untuk membekalkan darah ke otak dan seluruh anggota badan yang lain..eceh! (cakap je la ko x pnah berjaye loose weight jimah oii..!) <--- oh! i really have to loose some weight! One of my closest friend is getting married and i wanted to look fabulous at her reception! ohhhh...sape nak sponsor saye amek class power plate sile angkat tangaaann!!!....
If last year during this time i had been counting days of my annual leaves for vacations and trips, surprisingly, this year i have no plan of any vacation at all....nan hado! i didn't manage to secure any flight to anywhere..so i guessed it's gonna be a quite year ahead. But i target to have at least one big trip this year...say, New Zealand, anyone? Ohhh...marilah ajak aku buat part time taking off agar dapat kumpol duit pegi trip idaman!
Career life! Planned to change company since end of last year..but looking at the economic situation these days..it's hard to predict anything at all..but still, if i've got the chance to pursue myself to gain new experience with a great salary, then, why not?! Changes can affected positively. For the moment, just stay in the current company and do the usual job...but, with new spirit of course..in more productive way...im just in my almost 5th year of career life..there's still a lot to learn. Oh, just to share..i had an interview today in a super big developer company (like at least 3 times bigger than my current company)...it was the toughest interview that i ever attended...very challenging. But anyway, it's too early to tell anything now. There'll be a next stage if i passed the one i had this evening. But it'll be a new challenge if i get the job! New experience offered as well. Tapi rezeki masing2 Allah dah ditentukan kan..jadi let's pray for a better career opportunity this year.
Relationship?! Not in my list at the moment. I want to focus more on building up my career. Tapi kalau ade jodoh yang datang bergolek, masakan aku nak tolak. Itu menidakkan rezeki dari Allah namanye.
Seems like no changes planned for this year...or, maybe i'm just a bad planner?! i don't know! it's still early to expect any glory for this year..still striving to achieve anything...still striving for a better stable life...still and always will be..
I just hope that i'll be a better person than i am in last year. Better in all aspects. Every aspects.
So, good luck with your year everyone! let's go and get going!
Thursday, 29 December 2011
unproductive day
Another unproductive day....
Hari ni www.pokapola.blogspot.com pulak dah memenuhi hari aku
Blog yang menarik...tapi cannot stop myself to compare it with kahuna's. Bahasa kahuna lebih sarcastic. Aku suka.
Tapi blog ni pon bes. Dan aku tgh berusaha khatamkan sume entri nye.
Maka, keje aku atas meja terbengkalai. Ye. Kurang disiplin disitu. Tp aku sedia maafkan diri sbb ni mggu terakhir 2011. Xde org pun buat keje. Bese nye time cenggini orang bergossip je. Jadi, ok. X bersalah sgt.
Ok. Aku terus membaca.
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Friday, 23 December 2011
BFF is Best Friend Forever
Today is a very unproductive day for me. Lying on bed all day long, cause sleeping seems the only way for me to sooth the pain of menstruation. Aku jarang kene period pain yang teruk macam ni. I always have good cycle of menstruation. It do comes every month at the right time. But, i dont know what happened last month, my period didn't come although i had my PMS. I guessed maybe i gained weight (again?! not so surprise this time. Did lots of food intake for the past few months). So, this month, the bleeding is like a pile although i'm only in Day 2.
But, drop the case. I'm not going to talk about my menstruation in this entry. Sure all of you know exactly what it is. Wanita, sile tampar pipi anda laju-laju kalau xtau mende tu. Guys, besok ko dah berbini sure ko reti beli pad. Tak reti jugak, sile google. Tak reti jugak, bunuh diri! Heh.
Dalam entri kali ni aku nak cerita pasal BFF or Best Friend Forever. The word been BFF is widely use now. Kalau tengok status-status kat fb..mesti ade kuar "Oww, thank you darling Z, you're my BFF"..pastu besok, kuar status "celaka kau Z, ko rampas bofren aku, betina x guna!"..Haha..that's lame. Ni semua pengaruh Ms Hilton sampaikan org pon dah salah ertikan makna best friend sebenar. Aku tak tengok show tu pasal aku rase it's bull shit. Boleh ke ko carik best friend gune competition yang macam tu? Tak jujur langsung!
Tapi pada aku, BFF is something more meaningful. Mr. Wiki said that best friend is someone (SINGULAR) with whom one shares the STRONGEST POSSIBLE KIND of friendship. Yes, i am totally agree with that. The strongest possible kind, that's the word. A best friend is someone you will turn to when you are happy or sad or angry or annoy or excited or any other feeling we have in the whole wide world. Someone that you can simply be you as you in front of her. Someone you will never kept a secret from. Someone you will never stop supporting. Someone that you will not willing to hurt or back stab. Someone that will hear your story without even judging you. Someone who accept you for who you are. Someone who will always support you even when you are in the deepest shit. Someone that will bring you to goodness, will keep you going, will never turn her back on you. Someone who knows what you feel inside without even have to describe it out lout. Someone you can talk for hours with same lame stories and never get bored. Someone who will be happy for you without envious. Someone who will forgive your mistakes right away without any grudge. Best Friend is a lover but of a same gender as you, without the intimacy of course.
Tapi ramai antara kite dah salah ertikan maksud best friend yang sebenar. Kadang-kadang orang ingat, kalau ko dah cerita your skeleton in the closet to another person, ko da boleh anggap dia sebagai best friend ko. It's not. It is much more than that. Best friend not just lend an ear, she'll support you and she'll keep your story safe. She will be loyal to you. She will help you to think straight. Aku rase ramai antara kita yang telah buka pekung di dada pada orang yang salah. Dari situlah aku rase gossip timbul, sebab ramai yang tak jujur dengan kawan sendiri. Ramai yang sanggup jaja cerita kawan semata-mata nak cari perhatian. Many have been consumed by envious feeling until they dare to back stab their own friend. Jadi, silalah lebih berhati-hati kalau nak bercerita.
Pada aku, best friend is not necessarily have the same character as you, or have the same hobby, or same preference. Both of you can be a complete different type of person, can come in different backgrounds, different physical but understand each other more than anyone else including your parent (ok, ni aku exaggerate!) I mean, takdelah begitu berbeza, should have some similarity, kalau tak macam mane dia nak paham ko kan.
Kalau ikut maksud di atas, aku percaya tak ramai antara kita yang punya best friend. Kawan mungkin bersepah, tapi best friend, you have to think twice, or maybe hundred times. Only those who are lucky get a best friend. If so, i can consider myself lucky!
I am proudly say that i have you as my BFF. Been friends with her since high school, through our teenage life, went to college together and now we are a 27 year old adult. I tribute this entry for you as an appreciation for being my best friend. Oh, aku sangat terharu bile mane aku jadi jawapan ko untuk secutiry question like "who is your best friend?". Mesti ko pelik apesal aku tetibe mushy nih. Sebab aku sangat enjoy our conversation hingga 3 pagi semalam. Dan aku teringat mase kolej dulu kite berborak sampai jam 5 pagi lepas balik cuti semester. Those are my very productive quality time with you.
Aku mesti sedih bile salah sorang antara kite nak kawen nanti (walau pon hell tak tau bile). Tapi aku harap aku boleh jadi best friend ko dan ko boleh jadi best friend aku sampai kite tua nanti. Sekian!
p.s.: Terharu tak beb?! mari belanja aku fatty crab! haha...
But, drop the case. I'm not going to talk about my menstruation in this entry. Sure all of you know exactly what it is. Wanita, sile tampar pipi anda laju-laju kalau xtau mende tu. Guys, besok ko dah berbini sure ko reti beli pad. Tak reti jugak, sile google. Tak reti jugak, bunuh diri! Heh.
Dalam entri kali ni aku nak cerita pasal BFF or Best Friend Forever. The word been BFF is widely use now. Kalau tengok status-status kat fb..mesti ade kuar "Oww, thank you darling Z, you're my BFF"..pastu besok, kuar status "celaka kau Z, ko rampas bofren aku, betina x guna!"..Haha..that's lame. Ni semua pengaruh Ms Hilton sampaikan org pon dah salah ertikan makna best friend sebenar. Aku tak tengok show tu pasal aku rase it's bull shit. Boleh ke ko carik best friend gune competition yang macam tu? Tak jujur langsung!
Tapi pada aku, BFF is something more meaningful. Mr. Wiki said that best friend is someone (SINGULAR) with whom one shares the STRONGEST POSSIBLE KIND of friendship. Yes, i am totally agree with that. The strongest possible kind, that's the word. A best friend is someone you will turn to when you are happy or sad or angry or annoy or excited or any other feeling we have in the whole wide world. Someone that you can simply be you as you in front of her. Someone you will never kept a secret from. Someone you will never stop supporting. Someone that you will not willing to hurt or back stab. Someone that will hear your story without even judging you. Someone who accept you for who you are. Someone who will always support you even when you are in the deepest shit. Someone that will bring you to goodness, will keep you going, will never turn her back on you. Someone who knows what you feel inside without even have to describe it out lout. Someone you can talk for hours with same lame stories and never get bored. Someone who will be happy for you without envious. Someone who will forgive your mistakes right away without any grudge. Best Friend is a lover but of a same gender as you, without the intimacy of course.
Tapi ramai antara kite dah salah ertikan maksud best friend yang sebenar. Kadang-kadang orang ingat, kalau ko dah cerita your skeleton in the closet to another person, ko da boleh anggap dia sebagai best friend ko. It's not. It is much more than that. Best friend not just lend an ear, she'll support you and she'll keep your story safe. She will be loyal to you. She will help you to think straight. Aku rase ramai antara kita yang telah buka pekung di dada pada orang yang salah. Dari situlah aku rase gossip timbul, sebab ramai yang tak jujur dengan kawan sendiri. Ramai yang sanggup jaja cerita kawan semata-mata nak cari perhatian. Many have been consumed by envious feeling until they dare to back stab their own friend. Jadi, silalah lebih berhati-hati kalau nak bercerita.
Pada aku, best friend is not necessarily have the same character as you, or have the same hobby, or same preference. Both of you can be a complete different type of person, can come in different backgrounds, different physical but understand each other more than anyone else including your parent (ok, ni aku exaggerate!) I mean, takdelah begitu berbeza, should have some similarity, kalau tak macam mane dia nak paham ko kan.
Kalau ikut maksud di atas, aku percaya tak ramai antara kita yang punya best friend. Kawan mungkin bersepah, tapi best friend, you have to think twice, or maybe hundred times. Only those who are lucky get a best friend. If so, i can consider myself lucky!
I am proudly say that i have you as my BFF. Been friends with her since high school, through our teenage life, went to college together and now we are a 27 year old adult. I tribute this entry for you as an appreciation for being my best friend. Oh, aku sangat terharu bile mane aku jadi jawapan ko untuk secutiry question like "who is your best friend?". Mesti ko pelik apesal aku tetibe mushy nih. Sebab aku sangat enjoy our conversation hingga 3 pagi semalam. Dan aku teringat mase kolej dulu kite berborak sampai jam 5 pagi lepas balik cuti semester. Those are my very productive quality time with you.
Aku mesti sedih bile salah sorang antara kite nak kawen nanti (walau pon hell tak tau bile). Tapi aku harap aku boleh jadi best friend ko dan ko boleh jadi best friend aku sampai kite tua nanti. Sekian!
p.s.: Terharu tak beb?! mari belanja aku fatty crab! haha...
Friday, 16 December 2011
dah private!!!
ala...ala...alaaaaa...
blog favourite aku telah di private kan?!!!
blog ini....www.backpackerbusuk.blogspot.com....telah di privatekan...
ohh..tidakkk...tidakk..
aku baru je menjadi peminat dia...
fatt, oh fatt..kalau ko mendengar rintihan aku..sila la invite aku masuk blog ko..blum habes mengaji nieh..
Hwaaaa!!
blog favourite aku telah di private kan?!!!
blog ini....www.backpackerbusuk.blogspot.com....telah di privatekan...
ohh..tidakkk...tidakk..
aku baru je menjadi peminat dia...
fatt, oh fatt..kalau ko mendengar rintihan aku..sila la invite aku masuk blog ko..blum habes mengaji nieh..
Hwaaaa!!
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
Mengembara
Entry fatt yang nie buat aku terpanggil untuk tulis entry ni..entri die mmg menyengat dan pujian harus diberikan sebab die berjaya provoke org. Bile korg bace komen2 org dalam entri tu korg akan tau betape berjayanye provocation die..syabbass bette..tulisan dia mmg menyentuh jantung ko.
Yes.. mengembara..aku rase sume org ade cita2 dan perasaan ingin melakukan yang ini. Sebab kite tahu betapa seronok bile kite dapat jelajah tempat org. Tengok sesuatu yang tak pernah lihat. Buat sesuatu yang x pernah buat. Makan sesuatu yang x pernah dimakan.
Tapi, aku rasa..rule of thumb nye adalah 'bende baru'. Its all about trying out new thing. The same feeling that a toddler will have when they are first time wearing their shirt on their own. The same adrenaline rush when u first bake a cake of your own. Similar feeling. Mencuba menda baru adelah sesuatu yang mengujakan. Apetah lagi pergi suatu tempat yang baru, jumpe org yang baru, dan buat perkara baru. It's like having all sort of topping displayed on top of all sort of flavor of tutti frutti ice cream. Get it? Good!
Tapi bile kite dah banyak kali pergi tempat yang sama dan buat mende yang same, ia dah x mengujakan lagi. Dah boring. Unless, kite pegi tempat yang same untuk buat mende yang lain. Contoh, hari tu pegi Pulau Perhentian, tapi pegi snorkeling je..tapi next year, g tempat yang sama tapi kali ni diving pulak. That'll be different. Sbb ade something yang mengujakan walau berada di tempat yang sama.
Sebab tu aku kalau boleh akan elakkan buat second trip ke tempat yang sama. Sebab, bagi aku, satu, bazir masa, masa yang ade tu patut nye dah boleh cover tempat lain, plus, ko dah tau ape ade kat situ, dan dah boleh expect dah feeling die cemane maka tiada keterujaan di situ. Dan kedua, bazir wang, mungkin kalau pon tempat yang ko pegi byk kali tu murah, tapi kalau ko sabar sket, pastu kumpul lagi duit 2, 3 bulan, mungken boleh pegi tempat yang baru yang lebih mengujakan.
Memang..bagi org yang x punya tiket student cam aku, mengembara ke europe country adalah hampir mustahil. Aku dapat jejak kaki ke europe pon sbb kakak aku blaja kat sana dan kebetulan ade peluang bawak mak aku pegi sana dan kakak aku pon plan vacay untuk kami sekeluarga. Maybe feeling dia lain sket compared to pegi ngn kawan2. Tapi mmg x kurang hebatnye. Dan, aku rase mmg hebat pon, sebab dapat nek Eiffel Tower, dan pegi Disneyland serta tgk tulips kat Keukenhof. Sounds cliche? Lantok le..kalau tempat2 tu x jadi buah mulut org skalipon, ia tetap bes. Btw, sbb tmpt tu bes la ia jadi buah mulut org kan? So, it's ok to be ordinary and dream of something cliche coz that something is worth to be cherish. Europe itself offers many things, dari environment, buildings, climate, people, lifestyle, and etc, everything is different from this part of the world. Different is different, other than ordinary, and of coz its something new. Sebab itu ia mengujakan. Dan apabila mengujakan, maka bende tu kompem akan menjadi buah mulut. So on and so forth.
Yang penting apa yang kite mahu buat. And have the courage to walk the walk. When we dream of something, we should put all of our effort to make it happen. Aku tau, menjadi sorg traveller pon bukan la sesuatu yg mudah. Byk pahit maung yang x diceritakan dalam travelog dan akan tersimpan rapi dalam ingatan blogger. Tapi, kalau itu yg kite mahu, we shud be enjoying every minute of the journey rite? Macam keje lah jugak, if we love what we do, we'll be enjoying every minute of it. Jadi, kalau begitu, kenangan pahit pon akan jadi manis kan?
Personally, aku sangat kagum dengan fatt, sbb die ade courage untuk pegi travel sorg (ni bukan bodek ke hape ke..aku cume menyatakan pendapat aku dalam blog aku sndiri)...tak ramai se tegar itu. Sbb mmg bukan senang. And it's not as fun as going with travel partner (provided that travel partner anda seorg yang fun..haha). Xder kawan berborak, xder kawan mengadu masalah. Aku rase aku belum ade keberanian itu. Aku pnah la jalan sorg2 kat Singapore (ni cerita aku update nnti mase update entri Singapore. Soon!). Tapi x bape nak bes la sbb xder teman nak borak walaupon kite free untuk buat ape dan pegi mane yang kite suke..
Sebab tu lah aku menghadapi masalah mencari travel partner yang sekepala. 'Sekepala' tu susah nak describe cemane. Tapi pokok utama adelah yang btul2 keen untuk travel. Sanggup berhabes wang, sanggup travel cheap, sanggup berjalan berkilo2, sanggup tanggung risiko, sanggup pikir, sanggup bagi idea, sanggup bekerjasama dan bertoleransi dan macam2 sanggup lagi la. Maksud keen adelah meletakkan pengembaraan sebagai satu priority. Sebab aku rase, i have enough of luxurious trip. I'm looking for exploration now. Aku nak jalan, tengok tempat org, dan be part of the society. Tapi, aku x berani nak buat sorg macam fatt. Jadi aku kene cari travel partner..huuuuuu.......masalah..masalah...
Yes.. mengembara..aku rase sume org ade cita2 dan perasaan ingin melakukan yang ini. Sebab kite tahu betapa seronok bile kite dapat jelajah tempat org. Tengok sesuatu yang tak pernah lihat. Buat sesuatu yang x pernah buat. Makan sesuatu yang x pernah dimakan.
Tapi, aku rasa..rule of thumb nye adalah 'bende baru'. Its all about trying out new thing. The same feeling that a toddler will have when they are first time wearing their shirt on their own. The same adrenaline rush when u first bake a cake of your own. Similar feeling. Mencuba menda baru adelah sesuatu yang mengujakan. Apetah lagi pergi suatu tempat yang baru, jumpe org yang baru, dan buat perkara baru. It's like having all sort of topping displayed on top of all sort of flavor of tutti frutti ice cream. Get it? Good!
Tapi bile kite dah banyak kali pergi tempat yang sama dan buat mende yang same, ia dah x mengujakan lagi. Dah boring. Unless, kite pegi tempat yang same untuk buat mende yang lain. Contoh, hari tu pegi Pulau Perhentian, tapi pegi snorkeling je..tapi next year, g tempat yang sama tapi kali ni diving pulak. That'll be different. Sbb ade something yang mengujakan walau berada di tempat yang sama.
Sebab tu aku kalau boleh akan elakkan buat second trip ke tempat yang sama. Sebab, bagi aku, satu, bazir masa, masa yang ade tu patut nye dah boleh cover tempat lain, plus, ko dah tau ape ade kat situ, dan dah boleh expect dah feeling die cemane maka tiada keterujaan di situ. Dan kedua, bazir wang, mungkin kalau pon tempat yang ko pegi byk kali tu murah, tapi kalau ko sabar sket, pastu kumpul lagi duit 2, 3 bulan, mungken boleh pegi tempat yang baru yang lebih mengujakan.
Memang..bagi org yang x punya tiket student cam aku, mengembara ke europe country adalah hampir mustahil. Aku dapat jejak kaki ke europe pon sbb kakak aku blaja kat sana dan kebetulan ade peluang bawak mak aku pegi sana dan kakak aku pon plan vacay untuk kami sekeluarga. Maybe feeling dia lain sket compared to pegi ngn kawan2. Tapi mmg x kurang hebatnye. Dan, aku rase mmg hebat pon, sebab dapat nek Eiffel Tower, dan pegi Disneyland serta tgk tulips kat Keukenhof. Sounds cliche? Lantok le..kalau tempat2 tu x jadi buah mulut org skalipon, ia tetap bes. Btw, sbb tmpt tu bes la ia jadi buah mulut org kan? So, it's ok to be ordinary and dream of something cliche coz that something is worth to be cherish. Europe itself offers many things, dari environment, buildings, climate, people, lifestyle, and etc, everything is different from this part of the world. Different is different, other than ordinary, and of coz its something new. Sebab itu ia mengujakan. Dan apabila mengujakan, maka bende tu kompem akan menjadi buah mulut. So on and so forth.
Yang penting apa yang kite mahu buat. And have the courage to walk the walk. When we dream of something, we should put all of our effort to make it happen. Aku tau, menjadi sorg traveller pon bukan la sesuatu yg mudah. Byk pahit maung yang x diceritakan dalam travelog dan akan tersimpan rapi dalam ingatan blogger. Tapi, kalau itu yg kite mahu, we shud be enjoying every minute of the journey rite? Macam keje lah jugak, if we love what we do, we'll be enjoying every minute of it. Jadi, kalau begitu, kenangan pahit pon akan jadi manis kan?
Personally, aku sangat kagum dengan fatt, sbb die ade courage untuk pegi travel sorg (ni bukan bodek ke hape ke..aku cume menyatakan pendapat aku dalam blog aku sndiri)...tak ramai se tegar itu. Sbb mmg bukan senang. And it's not as fun as going with travel partner (provided that travel partner anda seorg yang fun..haha). Xder kawan berborak, xder kawan mengadu masalah. Aku rase aku belum ade keberanian itu. Aku pnah la jalan sorg2 kat Singapore (ni cerita aku update nnti mase update entri Singapore. Soon!). Tapi x bape nak bes la sbb xder teman nak borak walaupon kite free untuk buat ape dan pegi mane yang kite suke..
Sebab tu lah aku menghadapi masalah mencari travel partner yang sekepala. 'Sekepala' tu susah nak describe cemane. Tapi pokok utama adelah yang btul2 keen untuk travel. Sanggup berhabes wang, sanggup travel cheap, sanggup berjalan berkilo2, sanggup tanggung risiko, sanggup pikir, sanggup bagi idea, sanggup bekerjasama dan bertoleransi dan macam2 sanggup lagi la. Maksud keen adelah meletakkan pengembaraan sebagai satu priority. Sebab aku rase, i have enough of luxurious trip. I'm looking for exploration now. Aku nak jalan, tengok tempat org, dan be part of the society. Tapi, aku x berani nak buat sorg macam fatt. Jadi aku kene cari travel partner..huuuuuu.......masalah..masalah...
Tuesday, 13 December 2011
Crossroads
Warning! Ini bukan entry ulasan cerite Britney Spears "Crossroads" yang ditayangkan pada 2002 ye. I know nothing bout the movie. Never watch it. Is it good? Should i watch it?
Ini adelah tentang kehidupan aku. At some point in my life, (or i believe, in anyone's life..but since ni blog aku, korg sile buat blog sndiri klu nak cite pasal crossroad korang) i'll meet with one crossroad. It is not so often but lately, it is. Maybe back then, i was not matured enough to see it was a crossroad, for instance, lepas PMR dulu nak amek pure science or technical science (of coz i chose technical science, klu pure science dah jadi dokter kot!), but now, due to aging aaaaannndd maturity, i feel like i was always meet with these crossroads.
Especially and mostly in my career life which is only 4 and a half year now. Rase dah macam2 simpang aku jumpe. Kalau dulu masa blaja, you'll met with this crossroad when u need to decide what course u want to take. The rest of four to five years is the journey to go along the path u chose and making sure we reached the top. But in career life it is soooo much different. I guessed maybe just at the early phase of career life which what i am facing now. Is it true, dear people?
The thing is, i went for an interview today. It is a construction company, or mainly known as Class A Main Contractor. The position offered is Contract Executive, and will be based at site. Its a contract basis based on construction period. The contract period is 18months and they are building a high rise luxury apartment in Sunway. The salary offered is about RM300 or less than what i'm getting now.
The thing that the interviewer highlighted to me is that i have zero experience working in construction firm. FYI, i spent 1 1/2 years working in consultant firm and 3 years in my current position as an exec in a developer company. Mind that i am in project dept instead of contract dept, which i shud since im a QS background. Looking at my background, yes, i had to agree with him. I never worked with any Main Contractor. It is a good chance for me to get such exposure considering that i am still below 30 and should get as many exposure as i can get in the industry regardless of what company i am in. I can imagine that the scope of work will be so much different from what i am doing now, just like what the interviewer said that everything will be fresh for me.
Sounds like no argument at all right? Here's come the problem....
I am ssooooo in the comfortable zone in my current company. I love what i am doing now. Despite it may be deviate from my QS background, but my scope of work taught me lots of thing especially on the technical part. I am working in corporate environment, which surprisingly, i love it (like, doing all the paperwork to get higher management's decision and all sort of thing). I love the environment. I love the friends and co-workers. I like my boss, at least some of it, but overall is okay. I have the freedom to speak up for my opinion and bosses are pleasantly hear it. Plus, i have 25days of annual leaves. That's a lot! Can consume all of it for my dreamed trip.
The part that i dont like, is, salary. Well, not sure whether i am not thankful enough or what, since few people said that is what i should be getting at my age. But, when seeing people do less work but getting more bucks than me, bothers me a bit. Its the bureaucracy that i hate. Its the thing that u have to 'bodek bos untuk naik pangkat' and people see your physical instead of your performance, bothers me a lot. I dont know whether this apply to all company or not (since i only have experience with 2 companies). And, i already had three years of experience in managing the police quarters and offices projects, which i dont know whether it is sufficient, but i would like to experience managing other type of projects, like building an MRT, or airports or even mixed development or properties that is profit based.
Ok now, are you getting it?
I may be passed the offer at the construction company, but i am still not sure whether it is a good decision or otherwise. Is it worth the extra RM300 to compensate all my comfort in my current company? Should i sacrifices all the comfortableness for the sake of searching for exposure and experience? Do i need such experience since i pursue myself to be a CEO or at least a GM in a corporate company like where im working now in 20 years from now? (wah kauu...cita2...xhengat punya! Ni time skarang laa..time belum ade laki dan anak...heharap kekal la cite2 ni smpi bila2)...
Maybe it's okay to pass such offer now. But how bout in a year time, or two years time?
Or...maybe i just think too much and shall go with the flow instead..?
Ok, dah pening...esok la sambung pikir....
Ini adelah tentang kehidupan aku. At some point in my life, (or i believe, in anyone's life..but since ni blog aku, korg sile buat blog sndiri klu nak cite pasal crossroad korang) i'll meet with one crossroad. It is not so often but lately, it is. Maybe back then, i was not matured enough to see it was a crossroad, for instance, lepas PMR dulu nak amek pure science or technical science (of coz i chose technical science, klu pure science dah jadi dokter kot!), but now, due to aging aaaaannndd maturity, i feel like i was always meet with these crossroads.
Especially and mostly in my career life which is only 4 and a half year now. Rase dah macam2 simpang aku jumpe. Kalau dulu masa blaja, you'll met with this crossroad when u need to decide what course u want to take. The rest of four to five years is the journey to go along the path u chose and making sure we reached the top. But in career life it is soooo much different. I guessed maybe just at the early phase of career life which what i am facing now. Is it true, dear people?
The thing is, i went for an interview today. It is a construction company, or mainly known as Class A Main Contractor. The position offered is Contract Executive, and will be based at site. Its a contract basis based on construction period. The contract period is 18months and they are building a high rise luxury apartment in Sunway. The salary offered is about RM300 or less than what i'm getting now.
The thing that the interviewer highlighted to me is that i have zero experience working in construction firm. FYI, i spent 1 1/2 years working in consultant firm and 3 years in my current position as an exec in a developer company. Mind that i am in project dept instead of contract dept, which i shud since im a QS background. Looking at my background, yes, i had to agree with him. I never worked with any Main Contractor. It is a good chance for me to get such exposure considering that i am still below 30 and should get as many exposure as i can get in the industry regardless of what company i am in. I can imagine that the scope of work will be so much different from what i am doing now, just like what the interviewer said that everything will be fresh for me.
Sounds like no argument at all right? Here's come the problem....
I am ssooooo in the comfortable zone in my current company. I love what i am doing now. Despite it may be deviate from my QS background, but my scope of work taught me lots of thing especially on the technical part. I am working in corporate environment, which surprisingly, i love it (like, doing all the paperwork to get higher management's decision and all sort of thing). I love the environment. I love the friends and co-workers. I like my boss, at least some of it, but overall is okay. I have the freedom to speak up for my opinion and bosses are pleasantly hear it. Plus, i have 25days of annual leaves. That's a lot! Can consume all of it for my dreamed trip.
The part that i dont like, is, salary. Well, not sure whether i am not thankful enough or what, since few people said that is what i should be getting at my age. But, when seeing people do less work but getting more bucks than me, bothers me a bit. Its the bureaucracy that i hate. Its the thing that u have to 'bodek bos untuk naik pangkat' and people see your physical instead of your performance, bothers me a lot. I dont know whether this apply to all company or not (since i only have experience with 2 companies). And, i already had three years of experience in managing the police quarters and offices projects, which i dont know whether it is sufficient, but i would like to experience managing other type of projects, like building an MRT, or airports or even mixed development or properties that is profit based.
Ok now, are you getting it?
I may be passed the offer at the construction company, but i am still not sure whether it is a good decision or otherwise. Is it worth the extra RM300 to compensate all my comfort in my current company? Should i sacrifices all the comfortableness for the sake of searching for exposure and experience? Do i need such experience since i pursue myself to be a CEO or at least a GM in a corporate company like where im working now in 20 years from now? (wah kauu...cita2...xhengat punya! Ni time skarang laa..time belum ade laki dan anak...heharap kekal la cite2 ni smpi bila2)...
Maybe it's okay to pass such offer now. But how bout in a year time, or two years time?
Or...maybe i just think too much and shall go with the flow instead..?
Ok, dah pening...esok la sambung pikir....
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Full Moon
This entry shud be done yesterday night. But since i was too tired to sit in front of my lappy after 2 hours straight of not-so-professional badminton training, i had no time to write this post. Balik training trus merangkak naik atas katil dan tertido.
All i wanna say that, yesterday, bagi siapa yang perasan, we had a full moon. Ye, kalau ikut bulan islam pon, kite mmg dah di tengah bulan Muharram. But, this one is different. The moon was so big and bright and beautiful. The good weather with lil bit of stars at the night sky added the beauty of the moon.
And I was awe-struck by its beauty while driving back home from the badminton training or, to be precise, after 'lepak mamak' session with Cik Sal. Can't get my eyes off the moon. Umpama melihat seorg putera raja kacak lagi kaya sedang melambai2 ke arah daku. Even, when i was driving, my eyes was not on the road or on the traffic, but i kept watching the unmoving moon. My eyes was locked to it and there was a bumpy feeling when the moon was out of my sight and i was hastily tried to locate the moon. Like i don't want to miss any second of the sight of it. It was like fell in love at the first sight (yeah, i now exactly how it felt).
And I was driving at 50km/hr (which is so not me, for those who knows) so that i have more time to see the moon, and i was speeding up when i lost it. It was like driving to the moon. Kalau lah boleh drive je sampai ke bulan, dah lame aku buat. heh!
Mungkin kejadian 'full moon' ni disebabkan kejadian gerhana bulan sabtu lepas. Ye ke? Mungkin! Mind my knowledge in 'ilmu alam' is not so much. haha..
But today, i cant see the moon anymore. I think it is because of the cloudy weather with a lil bit of rain we are having tonight. Seolah-olah bulan yang cantik semalam macam merajuk je tak nak kuar dan menyorok belakang awan. And we cant do nothing about it. Just hoping that we will still have the chance to meet with the full moon again.
Food for thought...that is how life goes. Nobody can really know what will happen tomorrow. Today, we might experience good stuffs, have good vibes, feeling successful, but next morning might not be as bright as yesterday. The most important thing is, to cherish the good moments that we are having today, dont let it slipped away through our fingers without really feel it, and to always be cautious to whatever possible or impossible thing that may happen in the future.
The beautiful moon we had last night.....
All i wanna say that, yesterday, bagi siapa yang perasan, we had a full moon. Ye, kalau ikut bulan islam pon, kite mmg dah di tengah bulan Muharram. But, this one is different. The moon was so big and bright and beautiful. The good weather with lil bit of stars at the night sky added the beauty of the moon.
And I was awe-struck by its beauty while driving back home from the badminton training or, to be precise, after 'lepak mamak' session with Cik Sal. Can't get my eyes off the moon. Umpama melihat seorg putera raja kacak lagi kaya sedang melambai2 ke arah daku. Even, when i was driving, my eyes was not on the road or on the traffic, but i kept watching the unmoving moon. My eyes was locked to it and there was a bumpy feeling when the moon was out of my sight and i was hastily tried to locate the moon. Like i don't want to miss any second of the sight of it. It was like fell in love at the first sight (yeah, i now exactly how it felt).
And I was driving at 50km/hr (which is so not me, for those who knows) so that i have more time to see the moon, and i was speeding up when i lost it. It was like driving to the moon. Kalau lah boleh drive je sampai ke bulan, dah lame aku buat. heh!
Mungkin kejadian 'full moon' ni disebabkan kejadian gerhana bulan sabtu lepas. Ye ke? Mungkin! Mind my knowledge in 'ilmu alam' is not so much. haha..
But today, i cant see the moon anymore. I think it is because of the cloudy weather with a lil bit of rain we are having tonight. Seolah-olah bulan yang cantik semalam macam merajuk je tak nak kuar dan menyorok belakang awan. And we cant do nothing about it. Just hoping that we will still have the chance to meet with the full moon again.
Food for thought...that is how life goes. Nobody can really know what will happen tomorrow. Today, we might experience good stuffs, have good vibes, feeling successful, but next morning might not be as bright as yesterday. The most important thing is, to cherish the good moments that we are having today, dont let it slipped away through our fingers without really feel it, and to always be cautious to whatever possible or impossible thing that may happen in the future.
The beautiful moon we had last night.....
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| ok, aku tau korang rase x cantek pon...sbb gamba ni diambil dari camera phone yang tah bape pixel tah (malas nak belek fon utk cek pixel die)...at the moment i captured this photo, i wish i was having super highly powerful DSLR camera... |
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
in JB again...
Hai pals...
I'm in JB again..will be here till Friday..but now, to be exact, i'm in front of my RA's desktop, tumpang internet jap sementara tunggu all the site representatives pegi makan before our site walk session. Gonna have a long walk thru acres of hot but muddy construction site here in Simpang Renggam in few minutes time...
OK, put that aside...despite of all the work loads, we're (me n my colleague) gonna have a our great time here..it is because, thanks to my BFF, Fae, who has suggested for a stop to Johor Premium Outlet, the first branded factory outlet in South East Asia..i remember reading about it somewhere in the paper few days back...
For those who are unaware of what it is...may check out from this web...The place is not yet launched but almost fully openened since early December..(well, this is early dec..so, it's just opened! haha)
Yep, nampak gaye macam Harbour Town i went on my last trip to GC..haha..another shopping session??!! My god!! Kempis la purse i...(had too much of spending this month considering last Singapore trip...demmit!)
Anyway, x sabar untuk melawat sane...nanti iols update uols ye pasal this place..(ala..camera tinggal kat umah plakkk...deyymmm)
p.s:/ yet to finish my GC trip and starting my Singapore trip update..Soooooo much to do in one time..feels like need more hours in a day, which, sooooo impossible..hahah..
I'm in JB again..will be here till Friday..but now, to be exact, i'm in front of my RA's desktop, tumpang internet jap sementara tunggu all the site representatives pegi makan before our site walk session. Gonna have a long walk thru acres of hot but muddy construction site here in Simpang Renggam in few minutes time...
OK, put that aside...despite of all the work loads, we're (me n my colleague) gonna have a our great time here..it is because, thanks to my BFF, Fae, who has suggested for a stop to Johor Premium Outlet, the first branded factory outlet in South East Asia..i remember reading about it somewhere in the paper few days back...
For those who are unaware of what it is...may check out from this web...The place is not yet launched but almost fully openened since early December..(well, this is early dec..so, it's just opened! haha)
Yep, nampak gaye macam Harbour Town i went on my last trip to GC..haha..another shopping session??!! My god!! Kempis la purse i...(had too much of spending this month considering last Singapore trip...demmit!)
Anyway, x sabar untuk melawat sane...nanti iols update uols ye pasal this place..(ala..camera tinggal kat umah plakkk...deyymmm)
p.s:/ yet to finish my GC trip and starting my Singapore trip update..Soooooo much to do in one time..feels like need more hours in a day, which, sooooo impossible..hahah..
Friday, 18 November 2011
The time traveller...eh, time travels
Yerp..teringat citer the time traveller's wife..bagi sape yang dah menonton citer tu mesti korang akan berangan dapat superpower macam tu..dapat travels through time..pasti ade banyak mende yang nak di ubah di mase lepas so that we'll have a better future..
Yes..time travels super duper fast nowadays..sedar tak sedar we're already in the middle of November of 2011 which means it'll took another one and a half month to the end of 2011..teringat mase awal tahun dulu..i was so excited to go through this year with lots of plan ahead.. i had anticipate that its going to be a busy year..and it is a busy year. I still remember i was smiling and excited thinking about vacations and trips that i was gonna have this year..all four of them, Krabi, Kota Kinabalu, Europe and Gold Coast, Australia.. and all these four has happened...i've ended it in last October..and i missed each one of them..
Along the way, i gained so much experiences, saw so much thing, did lots of activities, had so much fun..it was really great time with family and friends. And i am grateful to Allah to give me such chances..
Betul kata orang2 tua..jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan..those 'pemandangan' cannot be describe by words..ok, boleh, tapi x precise..you will not feel the same way as the person who experience it..it always been that way..you'll never know the real feeling unless you really in it..really experience it physically and mentally..rasa dengan kelima-lima deria yang dikurniakan Allah SWT..that is why i urged all my friends to go out and experience yourself..the experience will definitely open up your mind and heart and you'll be grateful for that..
Masa yang diberikan pada kita tak panjang..moreover, we will never know when the Death Angel will come visiting. Jadi masa ni lah kene gunakan sepenuhnya. Life is about learning to balance things up..there's a says that aura yang baik adalah aura yang berada di tengah2 dan seimbang...and i believe it's true..Agama pun menuntut kite bersederhana/wasatiah iaitu berada di tengah-tengah...mungkin setiap org mempunyai angan-angan dan impian yang berbeza..but getting out from your comfort zone is the principle..it'll let you learned new things..something that you don't know before.. and since time doesnt wait, we have to move fast..make faster decision and act faster...
The worlds is getting older..looking at her condition now, i come to realize that there are lesser time for me to go see other part of the world..it choked me when thinking bout so many countries and places i haven't see..Korea, Japan, India, New Zealand, Middle East..name it...those are countries i never explore..damn they were good places and must visit...
Every single human have the same 24 hours in a day..not a single human being have one single extra second..not one..the question is, how do we fill it...apart from our 'routine', do we actually do SOMEthing? Do we gain anything from that SOMEthing we did? Do we know that SOMEthing is really worthy? I personally envy friends who's married and have kids. From my point of view, having your own family (with your life partner and kids) is life's ultimatum...tapi i percaya Allah dah tetapkan rezeki dan jodoh masing2..and pals, meramaikan khalifah Allah di bumi is the most noble thing in the world..please do proud of it and be grateful that you had the chance to do it..
So, dun even think that your life is sucks when you sees other people travel all round the world and do all kind of activities..because the most important thing is what did you do with the TIME that has been given to you...
Now i'm thinking what i need to do with mine...and really do it...!
Now? it's already 2.45am and i think i need to sleep..
p.s:/ I always say that if i have another life, i wanted to be a surgeon! haha..tu la..dulu belajar malas..dah x dapat jadi dokter dan buat keluarga bangga..haha..
Yes..time travels super duper fast nowadays..sedar tak sedar we're already in the middle of November of 2011 which means it'll took another one and a half month to the end of 2011..teringat mase awal tahun dulu..i was so excited to go through this year with lots of plan ahead.. i had anticipate that its going to be a busy year..and it is a busy year. I still remember i was smiling and excited thinking about vacations and trips that i was gonna have this year..all four of them, Krabi, Kota Kinabalu, Europe and Gold Coast, Australia.. and all these four has happened...i've ended it in last October..and i missed each one of them..
Along the way, i gained so much experiences, saw so much thing, did lots of activities, had so much fun..it was really great time with family and friends. And i am grateful to Allah to give me such chances..
Betul kata orang2 tua..jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan..those 'pemandangan' cannot be describe by words..ok, boleh, tapi x precise..you will not feel the same way as the person who experience it..it always been that way..you'll never know the real feeling unless you really in it..really experience it physically and mentally..rasa dengan kelima-lima deria yang dikurniakan Allah SWT..that is why i urged all my friends to go out and experience yourself..the experience will definitely open up your mind and heart and you'll be grateful for that..
Masa yang diberikan pada kita tak panjang..moreover, we will never know when the Death Angel will come visiting. Jadi masa ni lah kene gunakan sepenuhnya. Life is about learning to balance things up..there's a says that aura yang baik adalah aura yang berada di tengah2 dan seimbang...and i believe it's true..Agama pun menuntut kite bersederhana/wasatiah iaitu berada di tengah-tengah...mungkin setiap org mempunyai angan-angan dan impian yang berbeza..but getting out from your comfort zone is the principle..it'll let you learned new things..something that you don't know before.. and since time doesnt wait, we have to move fast..make faster decision and act faster...
The worlds is getting older..looking at her condition now, i come to realize that there are lesser time for me to go see other part of the world..it choked me when thinking bout so many countries and places i haven't see..Korea, Japan, India, New Zealand, Middle East..name it...those are countries i never explore..damn they were good places and must visit...
Every single human have the same 24 hours in a day..not a single human being have one single extra second..not one..the question is, how do we fill it...apart from our 'routine', do we actually do SOMEthing? Do we gain anything from that SOMEthing we did? Do we know that SOMEthing is really worthy? I personally envy friends who's married and have kids. From my point of view, having your own family (with your life partner and kids) is life's ultimatum...tapi i percaya Allah dah tetapkan rezeki dan jodoh masing2..and pals, meramaikan khalifah Allah di bumi is the most noble thing in the world..please do proud of it and be grateful that you had the chance to do it..
So, dun even think that your life is sucks when you sees other people travel all round the world and do all kind of activities..because the most important thing is what did you do with the TIME that has been given to you...
Now i'm thinking what i need to do with mine...and really do it...!
Now? it's already 2.45am and i think i need to sleep..
p.s:/ I always say that if i have another life, i wanted to be a surgeon! haha..tu la..dulu belajar malas..dah x dapat jadi dokter dan buat keluarga bangga..haha..
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
Bagai Racun
Oooohhhh *tangan atas dahi*...bace blog adelah seperti racun...
Saye x boleh berenti dari satu post ke satu post yang laen...
dan skarang..saye terlekat dengan membace blog2 travellers yang ini:
1. http://backpackerbusuk.blogspot.com
2. http://biqque.blogspot.com
3. http://kakiberangan.blogspot.com
entri-entri diorg have occupied me all day long..
Collegue kat sebelah dah jeling2..bile keje depan mate ni nak jalan..surat dah meninggi dalam tray nak kene balas..deymmm..
Sanggup x pegi lunch sebab nak bace blog..dan skarang dah lapar... (padahal baru bedal goreng pisang berkati-kati!)
Bahaye niiii bahaye...malam kang harus tido 3 pagi bace entry2 dorg...tapi kene layan TIN-TIN ADVENTURE kat GSC dulu...hoyyeehhh!!
p.s/: Tetibe ade matlamat baru..nak pegi NEW ZEALANNNNDDD!!!
Saye x boleh berenti dari satu post ke satu post yang laen...
dan skarang..saye terlekat dengan membace blog2 travellers yang ini:
1. http://backpackerbusuk.blogspot.com
2. http://biqque.blogspot.com
3. http://kakiberangan.blogspot.com
entri-entri diorg have occupied me all day long..
Collegue kat sebelah dah jeling2..bile keje depan mate ni nak jalan..surat dah meninggi dalam tray nak kene balas..deymmm..
Sanggup x pegi lunch sebab nak bace blog..dan skarang dah lapar... (padahal baru bedal goreng pisang berkati-kati!)
Bahaye niiii bahaye...malam kang harus tido 3 pagi bace entry2 dorg...tapi kene layan TIN-TIN ADVENTURE kat GSC dulu...hoyyeehhh!!
p.s/: Tetibe ade matlamat baru..nak pegi NEW ZEALANNNNDDD!!!
Monday, 14 November 2011
how your life will benefit others
Mama cakap arwah ayah slalu brought up this question :
"Macam mana caranya supaya kehidupan kita boleh bagi manfaat kepada orang lain?"
I wonder how my life has benifited others..
Tiba2 rase mulianya pekerjaan seorg guru atau doktor..
But i hope i still can benifits other although im neither a teacher nor a doctor..
I hope..i really hope..
"Macam mana caranya supaya kehidupan kita boleh bagi manfaat kepada orang lain?"
I wonder how my life has benifited others..
Tiba2 rase mulianya pekerjaan seorg guru atau doktor..
But i hope i still can benifits other although im neither a teacher nor a doctor..
I hope..i really hope..
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Apa Sebenarnya Yang Kita Nak Buat dalam Hidup?
Soalan ni tiba2 muncul dalam fikiran aku...
And i know this question will sometimes cross our mind especially when we're in discussion with friends while having teh tarik session and listening to everyone who is bragging about their success in life..(takpe..dengar je..then digest..sbb you can take other people stories in 2 different ways..one, you can be truthfully inspired by them, or kau boleh anggap "elleeehh...kau hanye nak berlagak je kan ngn cerite2 kau tu kan?"..either way, confidence level si pencerita will boost up dengan menceritakan kejayaan hidup dia..jadi anggap tu satu pertolongan)
But, no matter how much we heard other people's story, all the story will come back to us..made us think why and why we can't be as success as them..
Everybody has been brought up differently. The way we've been brought up has shaped us and turned us into who we are. It'll influence our pattern of thought, our attitude and our goal and desires. That is the fact that cannot be denied.
Persoalan "Apa sebernarnya yang kita nak buat dalam hidup" adalah berbeza antara satu sama lain bergantung pada pandangan masing2. Xde yang salah..xde yang betul..It's just the way we see other people's goal without putting ourselves in their shoes has put the sentence into right or wrong.
So, when you heard someone telling what he/she actually want in their life, stop making judgement. Because you never know, not a little bit, what they've gone through in their life. Respect, that is the key of communication with other human being. When you respect, you'll listen, and if you are wise enough, you'll learned from their stories. That is what they never taught you in university.
Ironically,
"A fool's brain digests philosophy with folly, science into superstition, and art into pedantry. Hence, a university education." - Larry Crowne in movie "Larry Crowne" quoted from George Bernard Shaw.
That is why we need to educate ourselves, with whatever education offered in the whole wide world. Because i believe, with education, we will see what we actually wanted to do in life and straightened up ourselves to do so.
However, don't start questioning what is "What exactly is the THING we wanted to do in life". Cause it'll lead to many arguments since its very subjective. All you need to do is close your eyes, open up your heart, ask Allah for his Petunjuk and you'll see what YOU wanted to do in your life, hopefully.
Its 4.30 in the morning, and i cant barely sleep due to high level of caffeine been sucked into my body. Jadi kau dengarlah aku mengarut ye..sekian..
And i know this question will sometimes cross our mind especially when we're in discussion with friends while having teh tarik session and listening to everyone who is bragging about their success in life..(takpe..dengar je..then digest..sbb you can take other people stories in 2 different ways..one, you can be truthfully inspired by them, or kau boleh anggap "elleeehh...kau hanye nak berlagak je kan ngn cerite2 kau tu kan?"..either way, confidence level si pencerita will boost up dengan menceritakan kejayaan hidup dia..jadi anggap tu satu pertolongan)
But, no matter how much we heard other people's story, all the story will come back to us..made us think why and why we can't be as success as them..
Everybody has been brought up differently. The way we've been brought up has shaped us and turned us into who we are. It'll influence our pattern of thought, our attitude and our goal and desires. That is the fact that cannot be denied.
Persoalan "Apa sebernarnya yang kita nak buat dalam hidup" adalah berbeza antara satu sama lain bergantung pada pandangan masing2. Xde yang salah..xde yang betul..It's just the way we see other people's goal without putting ourselves in their shoes has put the sentence into right or wrong.
So, when you heard someone telling what he/she actually want in their life, stop making judgement. Because you never know, not a little bit, what they've gone through in their life. Respect, that is the key of communication with other human being. When you respect, you'll listen, and if you are wise enough, you'll learned from their stories. That is what they never taught you in university.
Ironically,
"A fool's brain digests philosophy with folly, science into superstition, and art into pedantry. Hence, a university education." - Larry Crowne in movie "Larry Crowne" quoted from George Bernard Shaw.
That is why we need to educate ourselves, with whatever education offered in the whole wide world. Because i believe, with education, we will see what we actually wanted to do in life and straightened up ourselves to do so.
However, don't start questioning what is "What exactly is the THING we wanted to do in life". Cause it'll lead to many arguments since its very subjective. All you need to do is close your eyes, open up your heart, ask Allah for his Petunjuk and you'll see what YOU wanted to do in your life, hopefully.
Its 4.30 in the morning, and i cant barely sleep due to high level of caffeine been sucked into my body. Jadi kau dengarlah aku mengarut ye..sekian..
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
off and off again..bile nak on nie??
The thing is..i am not yet mastered the self-controlling skill...
People said that there were several phases in surviving from break ups..i said, yes, there is such a thing..some people may not realize that they are going thru that phases, which brought them in denial..but for me..yes, i believe in such thing..so, i googled..and in found these..
Seven (7) phases in recovering from break-ups - by i dont know who the hell the writer is..
1. Denial
You are not believe and will not believe that that the relationship is no good for her. As a human it is normal to fear loss, which is why sometimes many of us stick to the same person or same routine because it is safe and reliable, even if it is hurting you and causing you to stay stuck in a rut. No matter how many people advise you to let go of this friendship that is sucking the life out of you, you refuses to. You are in denial to assess the real situation of the relationship. But not for long.
2. Blame & Loss
Time is a great friend to many of us. With time, people’s flaws start to show and the recipient does not stay so patient as before. A few months later you will starts to decide for yourself that your partner is actually no good for you and this is when the friendship officially breaks up. In the place of the relationship you had for so long, you will now feels loss, which hurts like crazy. And so the blaming begins. You'll blames your ex for being a user. You'll blames yourself for being so gullible. You'll blames the world if need be, while grieving over the loss of something that you thought would always be true and beautiful.
3. Acceptance
You'll starts to accept what has happened and the blaming decreases. The feeling of loss is still there, but it does not hurt as much. You'll believes this happened for a reason and starts to assess the situation logically.
4. Re-bound
You'll eventually meet new people which will be the re-bound subject. Though you have accepted what has happened to be fate, you'll still wants to replace that feeling of loss immediately. This may cause you to make some rash decisions on choosing future partner and you will definitely wake up with a relationship-hang-over if you're not careful.
5. Guilt & No Trust
People said that there were several phases in surviving from break ups..i said, yes, there is such a thing..some people may not realize that they are going thru that phases, which brought them in denial..but for me..yes, i believe in such thing..so, i googled..and in found these..
Seven (7) phases in recovering from break-ups - by i dont know who the hell the writer is..
1. Denial
You are not believe and will not believe that that the relationship is no good for her. As a human it is normal to fear loss, which is why sometimes many of us stick to the same person or same routine because it is safe and reliable, even if it is hurting you and causing you to stay stuck in a rut. No matter how many people advise you to let go of this friendship that is sucking the life out of you, you refuses to. You are in denial to assess the real situation of the relationship. But not for long.
2. Blame & Loss
Time is a great friend to many of us. With time, people’s flaws start to show and the recipient does not stay so patient as before. A few months later you will starts to decide for yourself that your partner is actually no good for you and this is when the friendship officially breaks up. In the place of the relationship you had for so long, you will now feels loss, which hurts like crazy. And so the blaming begins. You'll blames your ex for being a user. You'll blames yourself for being so gullible. You'll blames the world if need be, while grieving over the loss of something that you thought would always be true and beautiful.
3. Acceptance
You'll starts to accept what has happened and the blaming decreases. The feeling of loss is still there, but it does not hurt as much. You'll believes this happened for a reason and starts to assess the situation logically.
4. Re-bound
You'll eventually meet new people which will be the re-bound subject. Though you have accepted what has happened to be fate, you'll still wants to replace that feeling of loss immediately. This may cause you to make some rash decisions on choosing future partner and you will definitely wake up with a relationship-hang-over if you're not careful.
5. Guilt & No Trust
Over with the re-bound phase, you'll start to feel guilty. Guilty over having a re-bound phase, feeling guilty because you told your ex so many things you shouldn’t have said, guilty because you think you could have handled the situation a lot better.
With the guilt comes the sense of not being able to trust anyone. You have been hurt and feels wary when approaching new relationships, scared that the same whirlpool will come suck you into a breakup. You're still hurting and needs time alone to heal the wounds so that you are fully prepared for a new relationship.
6. Healing
This may take a few weeks to a few months, lasting a year if the initial damage was quite bad. The healing stage gives you plenty of time to forgive those who let you down, to forgive yourself. Without interruptions from new relationships, you need to focus on your own personal development, both spiritually, mentally and physically. You need to regain your confidence and love yourself again. You need to be able to trust yourself and not fear your own decision making. You also needs to know that you worth so much more than getting yourself into lousy relationships. You value your self-worth and makes a pact to be true to yourself always.
7. Moving on
The final phase happens when you'll feel you are over the hurt of the past. You can look at it with your mind and not your heart and emotions. You'll be well and truly over it and understands it was a hard lesson you had to take which has passed. You are now ready to move on into the future whilst bearing in mind the lessons you've learnt so as not to repeat any mistakes. You have recovered and knows if you ever saw your ex you will treat them with indifference because they cannot hurt you anymore. The past is in the past now. And the future is bright.
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Truthfully, i am not sure which phase i am now. I am too involved and do things super fast when connecting with the opposite gender even though i knew that he is not a good prospect non-so-ever. I loss my focus on work and my life. All i wanted is to fill in the emptiness. Indeed!
I really need to drag myself out of this situation cause i dont want a relationship-hang-over. Dun think can survive another relationship being damaged. Going into a relationship now is really a bad idea.
So, i need to stay focus on achieving my goals. Really need the focus!
Despite of that, i had a blast Raya Haji celebration with family and friends. We had our family berbeque dinner..an adhoc one..but somehow..me, angah and mama manage to keep it together fantastic dishes with the help from few of my cousin..we had marinated chicken, ikan cencaru, sotong, lamb, and also the main dish and side dish; spaghetti, potato salad, Vietnamese salad and chips...good work everybody...kalau camni punye kerjasama, hari2 buat bbq pon takpe..hehe..
Gamba celebration? haha..xder..nnti i curik dari camera sepupu2 i yg ade hari tu...hehe..
OK now! Get up and go to work! Focus, focus, focus!
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